The Way You Love Me (continued)

humko yeh gum rash nehi

Recap: check the previous chapter

Few hours passed. Bondita kept sitting beside him. Tears were falling. She took Anirudh's arm and carefully removed her dupatta and applied medicine than bandaged.  Bondita held his hand to her cheeks and cried silently.  Anirudh got conscious and saw her crying.  Tears also started falling from his eyes.

"apne itni badi baat mujhse kiyu chupayi? main apse puchta raha kya rista hain humara? aap mujhse jhoot kehti rahi kiyu?" Anirudh asked. Bondita left his hand. "kis bare mein baat kar rahe hain? maine koi sach nehi chupaya"... Bondita said and got up but he held her wrist. Bondita wipped her tears. " agar mujhe woh pal kabhi yaad nehi atein to sayad mujhe kabhi pata hi nehi chalta sach. Anirudh asked.

"kiyu ki main apko stress dena nehi chahti thi" Bondita replied. "shirf yehi baat hain ya darti thi ke main apki zindegi mein wapas na ajayu? aur stress kiyu hoga? mujhe to halka mehsoos hota. jo bhi ho mujhe sab yaad nehi aya par sayad bohat si pal yaad agayein aap kaise mera dhiyaan rakhti thi. sayad main apse piyaar bhi karta tha par apne kisi or se shadi karli.... sahi hu na main? Anirudh asked. Bondita turned towards him. tears rolled on her cheeks.

" nehi aap mujhse piyar nehi karte thei or nahi main apse. aap bas attached thei mujhse. maine jo kuch bhi kiya shirf insaniyat ke naate kiya usse ziyada kuch nehi tha humare bich" Bondita replied. Anirudh smiled.  "aap keh rahi hain to maan liya. 2 mahine treatment chalne ke badh jab main bhul gaya sab tab  dai maa ne bataya tha mujhe ke jab main bimar tha tab kisi ladki ne meri bohat madat ki thi. aur woh bhi bataya jo meri pisi ne mere sath kiya. unse naam puchta tha par woh kabhi batati nehi thi. aap hi thi na woh ladki? Anirudh asked. Bondita noded and tried not to cry.

" sukriya mera dhiyan rakhne ke liye. mere liye itna sabkuch karne ke liye... pehle hi bohat kuch kar liya hain...main kisi bhi chiz ke liye apko force nehi karunga...aap azad hain... jaanta hu aap nehi chahti mere zindegi mein rehna to main bhi apko nehi rokunga. nahi force karunga mere treatment ke liye" Anirudh replied and left her hand.

"thik hain. main jaa rahi hu...Bondita said and about to leave when he again stopped her. " aur Kaal raat jo bhi hua humare bich.." Before he complete she interrupted. "apko mujhe explination dene ki zarurat nehi. ap galat to nehi thei apki life hain. main kon hoti hu apko sawal karnewali. Instead I am sorry for slapping you... my boss" Saying that he left. Anirudh shook his head. She was walking while crying. she recalled their beautiful moments. Anirudh sat helding his head.

" mujhe sab adhoora yaad araha hain. kya kya hua tha humare bich in 4 saal pehle  unka pata nehi par main to unse hi piyar karta tha. akhir unse piyar kiye bina koi reh sakta hain. Her husband is so lucky for having her for lifetime.

Anirudh said to Himself with moist eyes. Bondita reached home bini was sleeping. She hugged her and cried silently. she felt a hand on her hair. It was Randheer's.  as she looked at him she hugged him tightly. he also hugged back and pated her head. "kiya hua? mujhe nehi batayegi?" Randheer asked. 

Here anirudh went to the painting room and touched bondita's painting. tears falling from his eyes. "apne to keh diya ke main apse piyar nehi karta tha. agar sach mein nehi karta tha to saalo badh bhi main apka chehra kiyu nehi bhul paya? 4 saal se main soch raha tha ke sayad apki jaisi koi ladki exist nehi karti. fir bhi ush ladki se hi piyar karne laga tha. aur sayad humesa karunga. main to sochta tha main sayad abhi bhi mentally ill hu tabhi apko yaad karta tha. aur jisdin apko hospital mein dekha ushidin samajh gaya tha kuch to hain humdono ke bich aur sayad main apko jaanta bhi hu par yaad nehi tha. dimag bhul gaya tha par dil mein aap humesa se hi thi. He said and smiled with teary eyes.

1 week passed. Anirudh again got busy with his work. Bondita also didn't met him once. Anirudh was passing through the children park and saw bini playing with some other childrens. He stopped the car and got down. Anirudh went near as bini saw him she hugged him tightly.  "aap milne kiyu nehi ate mujhse?" Bini complaints. "sorry...kaam mein busy rehta hu na to time nehi milta" Anirudh replied sweetly. "aur apki health kaisi hain? mumma to apke liye hi  pareshan rehti hain. kehti hu unse ke hum milne chalte hain apse par woh mana kar deti hain" Bini told. Anirudh thought if she really concerned for him.