Jane |18+| ✔️

18. The time of many Firsts

Silas

Her face is stoic and unaffected, but her entire aura streams all kinds of emotions. A collage of confusion, fear, and anxiousness—but above all else, loyalty is interweaved with countless others, including sensuality, that makes up my exquisite, courageous human. "Idle threats—"

"Not idle—fact," I shut the thought down. "I've told you, now that I have you—"

"You never touched Reeva? Sexually, I mean?" Bewildered, the abrupt turn in the topic has me smiling. That and the revelation laced with a pleading confirmation have me inwardly chuckling. After all we've shared and the intensity of our relationship, her reasoning is still battling with her soul and what she must do to evade me and our tethered bond. I don't have to read her mind or even study her emotions—her blatant persona speaks volumes. 

Deciding to answer her question with a question is the best way to go. "And Darrell or any other crush you've had—were they ever heated? Making you ache with desire like I do?" Her full dark brows bunch in thought. "No. Why? Because you were meant for me, and me only." Her eyes flick to mine. 

"Earlier, I explained why you lacked male... companionship—it works both ways. Not many - if any - had your head turning—before me, that is," I cockily add. "Why?  Because I am exactly what you desire, require, and deserve." I pause as her big, beautiful eyes stay locked on mine. "The little libido I had instantly dissolved when you were born... only to erupt with carnal ferocity the moment I scented you on my lands." Her blush slowly creeps up her cheeks. "As for Reeva, she was like you, little one, born for another."

"Wait? She was fate-mated too?" her lips tip into a slight grin with what can only be described as a relief. With a nod, her grin grows. "She didn't know?" I shake my head. "But you did?" I nod once again.

"Which is another reason I let her believe she was fooling me." Swiping my knuckle down her cheek, her moan sends delicious shivers down my spine. "Being fate-mated is an all-consuming feeling—even well before you meet your destiny, but it also lends itself to other emotions that are hidden and, although they may seem innocent, will have fatal repercussions."

"Such as?" Reaching for the lever on the shower, I fling it on, needing to busy myself with washing. The way Jane is looking at me and her increasing arousal infiltrating the air around us has me wanting to bury myself so fucking deep in Jane's impossibly tight, warm cannel until she carries my heir – if it's even possible. But that notion and the questionable outcome will have to wait until I know she's safe and will remain targetless. Goddess only knows how long that will be.

"Touch another male, and you'll find out," I wink, knowing damn well she never...

"I have—despite what you said earlier," she harmlessly states as a sting of suspicion zips through my being, setting my wolf off in a fit of fury. "When I said touched, I was referring to it as sexually,  but I have innocently touched hands or kissed on the cheek or hugged guys before—including Yannick and Lannister. Does that count?" 

Breathing through my jealousy, my overall demeanour soars with unrelenting possessiveness until it dawns on me... the bond doesn't wholly affect her as it does me—or it had my parents. Huh? I'm unsure if this pleases me or not. I suppose time will tell, and I may need to test my theory to prepare Jane in case I'm wrong...

"Silas?" she whines, pulling me from my thoughts as I smile more, dragging her under the rainfall showerhead. "Tell me."

"You're teasing my wolf again," I taunt with a smirk as she continues to stare at me without a glimmer of a hint of what she's thinking. But it's her scent that speaks volumes this time before a salacious grin slowly slides up her generous lips.