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Neteyam - Mixed signals

For as long as i could remember, Neteyam was well aware of my feelings for him. i was not exactly trying to hide them either. I'm pretty sure everyone knew about them, i truly did not mind.

What i did mind though was that Neteyam was not exactly transparent with his feelings for me. I often felt like he was sending me mixed signals. He would grab my hands and give me these sweet smiles, only to treat me like a stranger a few hours later. I knew he was kind and friendly to everyone but sometimes he made it feel special and different with me.

Even his siblings could see that he was acting differently with me. They were sure he had at least some kind of romantic feelings for me. I wanted to believe them, but every time Neteyam would ignore me, for who knows what reason, I couldn't help but get upset.

I did try to get rid of these feelings, but how can I stop liking someone when they never rejected me to help me move on? Especially when the said person keeps showing interests in me every once in a while.

Maybe it was wrong of me to have so much hope that he actually could like like me. He never did anything wrong really, he was never mean, or rude, just distant.

I should probably confess my feelings for real, then i would have an actual response. I'll do that.

It was decided, i would confess to Neteyam to finally know how feels about me.

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I put aside what i was doing and stood up. I needed to do it now before i could get discouraged and change my mind. I needed to find Neteyam.

I got out of my tent and looked around to find him. As i was walking around, I saw Lo'ak and Kiri arguing. I made my way towards them, smiling to myself at how ridiculous they could sound sometimes.

"Well i don't care Lo'ak! You're a moron!" Kiri loudly said.

"I am not a moron! It was completely normal reaction! So shut up!" Lo'ak yelled back at her.

I soon stopped once i was standing next to them. They diverted their eyes towards me. Kiri gave me a small smile while Lo'ak only nodded. "Hey (Y/N), is everything okay?" Kiri asked slightly pushing Lo'ak away. He slapped her arm away stepping closer to me. "yeah, are you good bro? You look nervous." he asked as he looked at you.

"Don't you have no tact moron?" Kiri said turning her head towards Lo'ak. I smiled finding it really funny to see them act like this. "It's fine Kiri, he's not completely wrong though. I am quite nervous." I said as I looked at her. "Why?" Lo'ak was quick to asked (Y/N).

"I decided to confess my feelings for Neteyam once and for all. I know he already knows, but I want to actually say it to him." I said, my heart starting to beat faster. I couldn't help but start to pick at the skin on my fingers. Could you blame me for being nervous though? Neteyam is quite extraordinary.

Kiri and Lo'ak looked at each other then back me. "Really?" Lo'ak asked me. I furrowed my eyebrows slightly confused at the reaction. Was it not a good idea? Did they know something I didn't? "Yes-? I'm tired of trying to guess whether or not he likes me, Lo'ak. It's exhausting." I responded to him. Kiri took a deep breath and gave me a smile. I couldn't help but feel like she was nervous for me. Was something going on?

"That's a good thing. Um- I saw Neteyam go that way not too long ago, so I'm sure he's not too far." Kiri said taking my hands into hers. She looked down at my fingers and sighed. "Don't pick your skin like that skxawng. It's not good." She said looking back up at me. I gave her a small smile before I nodded my head.

"Thank you guys, I'll see you later!" I said letting go of Kiri's hands. I turned around and started looking in the direction Kiri told me she saw Neteyam going.

Just like she said, he was not too far. I put on a smile and took a deep breath before I walked up to him.

"Hey Neteyam, I was looking for you." I said grabbing his attention. He turned his head and looked at me before giving me a warm smile. "Hi, were you really?" He said slightly tilting his head to the side. I could feel my nerve wanting to leave my body. Neteyam has always been charismatic, he's always had this effect on me.

"Yes, i was. i wanted to talk to you about eh- something important to me." I said trying to keep a strong eye contact with him. He nodded his head and gently grabbed my hands in his. I looked down at our hands, opening and closing my mouth. I couldn't get any words out. "(Y/N)? You can tell me anything." He softly said giving my hands a gentle squeeze.

I slowly looked up at him. The smile he was giving me was giving me hope. There might be a chance that he reciprocate my feelings. i smiled at him squeezing his hand in return. "I know i can tell you anything... I was doing my chores and i couldn't help but think about... you." I said unsure of how i wanted to bring the subject.

"Me? Why is that?" He asked.

"Yeah, you. We've known each other for a long time now and, you know, we get along pretty good if i must say so myself." i didn't know what i was saying anymore. Why couldn't i just get to the point?

"Yeah, yeah we do. I mean you're one of the sweetest person in our clan." He said moving our hands higher to intertwined our fingers. This boy is gonna make my heart stop for real. "Right, right, so you know. i-" i stopped myself and looked into his eyes before i took a deep breath. I can do this. "Neteyam, you're everything to me and i wanted to tell you that i really really lik-"

"Neteyaaaam!" A loud voice interrupted me. Neteyam and I both looked in the direction of the voice. The voice belongs to Kìae, a Na'vi our age. Neteyam let go of my hands before he walks up to Kìae to greet them with a smile i've never seen on his face before. The look Kìae gave him back told me everything i needed to know. I felt my heart sink, I didn't even get the time to tell him how i felt. He completely forgot about me and was engrossed by the conversation he was having with Kìae.

I guess i missed my chance. Did i even get a chance to begin with?

I looked down and began to walk away. This was so stupid, why did i think i should do that? As i was leaving, i felt hot tears starting to roll down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them away, trying to walk away as fast as i could without attracting any attention to me.

Kaìe is a good person, so Neteyam would be happy. That's all that matters, for him to be happy. He deserved to be happy, even if it isn't with me.

All i need to do is move on now.

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A/N : Kìae is a made up character :)

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