Aku selalu ada || Abdul Kahar

Budak

2006(Kahar form5):

Aku termenung dekat dm tu. Kerja-kerja potong, masak dah habis. Tinggal tunggu budak-budak turun ja.

Kahar

Aku terfikir. Dia okay ke?

Masuk masa minum petang, berduyun-duyun budak datang ke dm. Mia dah standby sebelah aku dengan makanan yang disediakan. Disebabkan aku yang prepare makanan aku tak payah serve. "Weh aku keluar jap. Sebatang lu." Aku cakap kepada Mia yang hanya angguk sebagai jawapan.

Once I'm outside of the dm I reached for the cig box that was tucked into my pocket.

"Sayang." I heard a familiar voice said. Aku pusing dan Kahar berdiri betul-betul depan aku. "Jom, sebatang." Dia cakap. Aku anggukkan. Dia bawak aku ke belakang dewan. Spot jarang ada warden.

Aku hulurkan sebatang rokok dan keluarkan lighter aku dari kotak rokok. Kahar placed the cigarette between his lips and leaned towards me. I lit up the cigarette for him. He inhaled and sighed resulting the smoke to blow out.

I tried to light  my cigarette but the lighter ran out of gas. "Setan." Aku merungut seorang diri, tangan masih cuba untuk nyalakan api dengan lighter yang aku tahu dah habis gas tu.

Kahar giggled and leaned forward, the already lighten up cigarette between his lips touched with mine that are still between my lips. I inhaled and greets the bitter sweet taste of the cigarette. Kahar leaned back against the wall . "Thank you." I told him.

He blew the smoke and smiled.

"Makan dah?" I asked him.

Dia geleng kepala.

"Napa? Sekeh kang." I half joked. I'm concerned for this boy. Kalau sayang mestilah risau kan?

He smiled and said that he's not hungry.

"Case jibam macam mana?" I asked him. Kahar is leaning against the wall while I'm just standing in front of him. "Case tu kena drop. Tak cukup bukti." He casually said whole reaching out to hold my free hand that isn't holding the cigarette.

Kahar is trying to play it cool but I know my man well. He's relieved. If kena tangkap then mesti ayah dia turun, mesti kena.

Aku angguk. Our intertwined hands are being swinged left and right by him. Aku biarkan ja dia.

"Ikut kitab high council, budak jibam tu kena pulau dan dorm mate dia kena roughing."  Kahar informed me. "Keem tengah roughing bilik."

Aku terdiam. Memang aku tak masuk campur benda-benda ni.

Budak-budak STIA, setia pada kawan. Itu tradisi kita.

Kalau ada budak report kes, report ke kp. Kalau kp tangkap budak report, punishment ikut kesalahan.

Berapa kali dia report?

Tapi KUDRAT ni extreme sikit. Sikit je la. Sebab diorang memang ikut buku kitab tu.

"Ingat Kahar. Jangan salah pakai kuasa." I told him sincerely.

For a second there's a facial expression I've never seen directed towards me before. Annoyance. Tak puas hati.

Kahar looked down at our intertwined hands. Placing the cigarette between his lips again and inhaled.