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Chapter 17 : Stares.

It's been days. Actually, who am I kidding. It's been about 2 weeks since I've been to school. I don't really know what's wrong with me. Everyday has been constantly tiring, even though I've done nothing. All I have accomplished was getting enough sleep. I should also get the award of how many dramas I've binge watched.

Heeseung hasn't talked to me ever since that fight we had. It makes me feel exhausted every time i think about it. I mean, we had a few interactions. He sometimes knocks on my door, telling me he left some food on the counter for me. But every time he comes back home, it's still left untouched.

It's true, I haven't been eating well either. My appetite has vanished and I didn't even have the energy to make something to eat. I've been on a water and ice cream cycle. I know, not healthy at all.

Since I haven't been out of my room whenever Heeseung is around, i sometimes sense he is worried about me. He shouldn't be worried as I had hurt him. I'm embarrassed of not realizing how he had felt before. And i most definitely hate myself for it.

Not only has he been worried, but a few people from school. Like Sunoo, Niki, and Jungwon. I haven't opened Jungwon's though. A part of me wants to give him some space.

A knock at my door awoke me from my thoughts as I turned over in my bed to face the door.

"Y/n?" Heeseung again. "Are you awake?"

"I'm awake." I said. I ran my fingers through my hair and quickly put a hoodie on incase he comes in.

"Y/n!" A familiar voice yelled. The door opened and it wasn't heeseung.

"I've missed you so much!" Sunoo ran up to me and sat on my bed. He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed tightly.

"Where have you been all this time? Why didn't you answer my calls or texts?" He said, sniffling.

"I'm sorry" I said quietly. My voice was dry from not talking to anyone for so long.

"Don't be. I'm just glad you're okay." He pulled away from the hug.

He stared at my features, noticing that I've lost weight all over my body.

"Are you okay?" He brush my baby hairs off my forehead.

"When was the last time you ate something?" Sunoo asked me.

"I don't really remember." I replied avoiding eye contact.

"Well, I brought you some ramyeon! I know it's your favorite." He smiled. He took his school bag off his shoulders and opened it, revealing 2 take out boxes.

I forgot he had school today. Of course, it's only Tuesday. Being away from school for so long made me forget the date.

"Now, eat up. Because you are going to school tomorrow."

I looked straight up at him. "I cant, not yet." I still felt tired from everything and everyone.

"I cant stand away knowing my best friend is hurting by herself."

Best friend?

"Don't worry, I'll be with you when we go. I'll swing by to walk with you tomorrow morning." He said, taking a bite of his noodles.

Sunoo. He's my ray of sunshine. My ray of happiness that I truly didn't deserve.

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"Y/n."

"Y/n!"

I groaned and turned away from the noise.

"Y/n, wake up!"