I don't like being alone
Alone is such an overwhelming word
Being alone makes me anxious
It makes me overthink
It makes me want to scream
It makes me feel trapped
Like I'm stuck in a world all on my own with nobody around
Parallels
The world I'm separated from and the world I'm from
It's cold
It's dark
It's lonely
It's frightening
But, only in the right circumstances is it peaceful
I want to be alone when I'm sad
I want to be able to overthink every single thing
I want to see why
I want to understand myself
I want to understand my actions
I want to understand the reactions
Cause and effect
I want my heart to ache
I want to blame myself
I want to feel something
Guilt
Fear
Regret
Anything
—Lila • May—
