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C H A P T E R 70

Kenny's POV.

Fear is one of the most incapacitating and destructive emotions. The most basic yet unpleasant and unsettling feeling to experience. The extreme thought or fear of losing someone is sometimes so intense that cripples mortally inside your body in an unhealthy way.

Fear and uncertainty can leave you feeling stressed, anxious.. but mostly powerless. It can drain you emotionally and trap you in a downward spiral of endless "what-ifs" and worst case scenarios about what tommorow may bring.

We're all different in how much uncertainty we can tolerate in life. I'm one of the few people in this world who can tolerate almost anything without loosing my state of mind by being anxious or terrified. I can't remember the last time I was actually scared of something. But right now, I'm at the verge of a breakdown.

"You need to get some rest man. We can continue with this first thing tomorrow morning." Jake suggested.

"I'm not trying to get rest, I'm trying to find my girl." I calmly told him. "You can go, I don't mind."

"I'm not leaving you here Kenny." He replied and immediately the door opened. Maddie and Sam got inside.

"Did you find anything ?" I stood up, looking expectantly at both their faces.

Blue's friend shaked her head disappointedly. "The van she was kidnapped in was dumped in a lake thirty minutes later. It was our only lead..."

I nodded running my hands through my hair before taking my car keys.

"I'm gonna check the desert." I announced, heading out.

"Kenny you know she's not there." Jake said and I just got out of the office without paying heed to his words.

After I got out of the building, I got inside my car and drove away. I don't know if she's there or not, but I'm gonna keep on trying until I find her.

It has been four fucking days since Blue was kidnapped.. and it honestly feels like months. Seeing the footage of her fighting, then being hit by a gun to unconsciousness, and being put inside an unknown van... It had to be the most infuriating yet painful thing to see.

I got worried the same night she got abducted. She wasn't answering any of my calls or messages which was an unusual thing for Blue. I went to the restaurant and seeing her car in the parking lot while she wasn't inside it nor inside Level Cafe proved my suspicions right.. something was wrong.

After seeing the outside footage of the cafe, I haven't even been able to sleep or eat. We've been searching for Blue day in day out. Everything is just hard to process, how do I even explain to my kids, where their mother is when I'm failing to find her.

With each passing second I just wonder how she's holding up and coping... What state she's in. Blue is the most strongest, relentless and unyielding person I know. She knows how to handle pain, emotionally or physically. But she wouldn't have to endure anything if I found her any sooner.

I know for a fact that Moscow is behind this, and he'll be sorry for even thinking about touching her. He's succeeded in provoking me to the last core and when I do find him, he'll have to deal with the monster he's unleashed.

I let out a heavy breath as I parked my car in the middle of the desert, exactly where her tracker indicates she is.

I gifted Blue a necklace on our trip to the Maldives five years ago and till this day she hasn't taken it off. I didn't think she'd live up to the promise she made to me, to never take it off after all these years. I provoked the most dangerous gangsters when I was a detective. I knew my life was constantly in danger, so were the lives of everyone around me. I had installed a tracker in the necklace I gifted her, not to stalk her or keep track of her movements. It was just incase one of the criminals I delt with, took Blue to get to me. That was ofcourse, before I knew she was one of those gangsters.