AUTUMN/Bbangsaz (NJ FF SERIES 1)

Chapter twelve

𝙺𝚒𝚖 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚓𝚒'𝚜 𝙿𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠

Sometimes people define that Love is blind, maybe it is and maybe i am blind too. Falling in love with a woman full of flaws and full of fears

"Here she goes again... Pham Hanni you're invading Kim Minji's mind" i was taken back from my thoughts to reality when Chaewon unnie just snapped her fingers in front of me

"Huh? What are you saying again?" I asks cause my mind is not in what we're talking right now, my mind flew into somewhere and i don't know why im having hard time to focus now

"I said are you really sincere in your feelings for that woman" Chaewon sunbaenim said i sigh and look at her eyes

This peoples are having hard time to believe me, i was very much in love with Hanni isn't it obvious? "I am... I love her so much" i said and drink the coffee she made for me since i badly need it, i will stay up for the night because the operation is tonight and now Hanni is just running some test

"But she's engaged right? How are you going to go against that?" Chaewon unnie asks again as she look at the papers in front of her

"I don't know, but i will do my best to have her but of course at last the decision will be hers... If she wants to marry my cousin then I'll let her who am i to interfere in her happiness" i said but saying those makes my heart ache, i know i can't let her go words just keep on coming out of my mouth and i know i don't mean to say that i will let her...

Soobin oppa and I has the best bonds as cousins, he was my brother and partner in crime before uncle jimin had sent him to Netherlands to run his business, after lose in touch with each other he typically change like expected, he became greedy and out of control, he also use to lie just to get what he wants and that's how i decided to hate him and his guts...

"Lets just all wish that Hanni won't leave you after you gave her Everything" she said and i just nods even though i know Hanni isn't that kind of woman, fears are still there.

Hanni can still look for someone better than me, i ain't perfectly sculpted unlike her face, i ain't perfectly well mannered person and i know once she's able to go around the place she can find someone better than me

"If she does then im out of this country... " i said and restrained my tears to fall. My own thoughts are hurting me and i don't know how to stop this.

"Dra.Kim, Ms.Kim Minji" the nurse call us we look at the door and smile "your girlfriend is done in her annual test so you can visit her already" the nurse said and hand to Chaewon unnie those papers

"Well thank you... Chae unnie... I'll just go and visit my girl" i said and stood up.

As soon as i leave the office i walk right through the hallways to her room and i didn't bother to knock, i just open it and saw my girl in the middle of the hospital bed she's listening to some music so i sat beside her "love... How's your tests earlier?" I asks

"They keep poking my skin with needles and it hurts" she pout at me and rest her head on my shoulders and she's so cute. God's favorite definitely

"You have to take all of those its for your own good too right?" I asks as i kiss the top of her head she whined and shake her head "i promise I'll tell them to stop poking your with needles because it hurts you... " i said she giggle and nods

"I love you" Hanni said to me once again, all this time she keep proving that those words isn't empty words those are real but im still afraid that she might love me but she will still leave me after