"The world was on fire and no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you"
-Wicked Game by Chris Isaak
POV Noah
"FUCK!" I yell once I get back in my car.
I pound my fist into the steering wheel over and over again.
Fuck the media. Fuck my stupid dad. Fuck my goddamn temper. I've fucked everything up now.
I can feel the skin on my knuckles split open, and I stop punching my steering wheel. There's blood on it and I flex my hand and see the various wounds I've created. Fuck.
I take a couple deep breaths before rooting through my gym bag. I grab some medical tape and start to wrap my hand, and then I wipe down the steering wheel. My hand aches but not as much as my heart.
This is not at all how I wanted that conversation to go.
I had just finished the extra training session coach had us do when I saw that article. I didn't believe it at first. I brushed it off because I knew Ryland wouldn't do that to me.
Then, I looked at the pictures and I could hear my dad's voice in my head. I could feel every single doubt I ever had surface. All I could think was what if this is real? I needed a clear answer. I needed to look Ryland in the eyes and know the truth.
And so I ask.
But my own stupid thoughts get in the way. Suddenly, I can't read him. All I can see is my dad telling me that I need to focus. All I can see are the possible things that could happen to my career if our secret got out.
And so, like a coward, I ran. I took the easy way out. I should have stayed. I should have explained and listened and let Ryland in. I should have trusted him. Now, I'm alone again.
I run my fingers through my hair, trying to get myself under control. I can't fall apart now. I have practice in 30 minutes, and I can't afford to be sloppy.
I drive to the practice courts, and once I arrive, I go straight to the lockers. I'm barely holding on, and if I have to make idle chit-chat with people, I think I'll lose it.
I can feel Paul looking at me, but I'm not prepared to tell him what happened yet. I don't think I would make it through that either.
Suddenly, I feel an arm slung over my shoulder.
"Noah, dude," Rocky says, jostling my shoulder a bit. "I feel like I haven't seen you in weeks!"
"Ah, just been busy."
"You got a girl or something?" he asks, wiggling his eyebrows. I just laugh but say nothing.
"Always the secrets with you," he says, moving to lean against the lockers while I finish getting ready. "We should hang out later."
"I'm uh...not really in the mood for a party."
"I doesn't have to be a party. We could just order a pizza and chill."
"I don't know man..." I say. It would be good to get my mind off of Ryland, but I'm also afraid I'll end up breaking down the second I have time to think about him.
"C'mon," Rocky says, "It's been forever!" He starts pleading and saying please over and over again, so I give in.
"Alright, alright! Just stop that awful pleading," I say and Rocky lets out a whoop. I laugh and we head out to the court. I try to zero in on the ball, but Ryland is always skirting in the corners of my mind.
YOU ARE READING
The Lucky One
Romance"I bite down on his lower lip and he moans again, pulling on my hair. Right now I don't care about basketball or the fact that my teammates are outside somewhere, I just want Ryland. And these filthy noises he is making are driving me insane." _____...