The armoured hearts

Kiss?

"Let’s- let’s bandage your hand.” Porchay had said in a hurry, at the speed of light, ignoring the moment, ignoring it all and smiling as if nothing had happened. Walking away, not waiting for Kim to help and letting him sit at the same place. Kim had in fact no idea about what was theoretically happening, however he just deep down, deep inside felt that he wanted it again. He didn’t know what they just exchanged but he was mostly sure that he might want to just drown in it.

He bit his lips, touched his heart, his cheek. Still fast, still hot. He never felt like this before, he never experienced this and instead of just walking away he stayed there. Thinking. He wanted to think about it but he didn’t know how or why. All he could gather from those thoughts was that he had liked it, even more he had loved it and he wanted to understand it all. He needed to get the meaning because the terrified expression Porchay got didn’t reassure his mind at all.

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“Where is Kim?” Tankhun had asked when he saw him coming into the main room alone.

“He is…still there…can you go get him?” He asked, looking suspicious.

“What happened?” Yok asked, sitting next to Tankhun on the sofa.

“No-nothing, what do you mean?”

“I don’t even know you that much but I know that something happened…” Kinn whispered, still looking at his paper.

“He…kissed me…or we kissed…I think I did too…”

Tankhun opened his mouth but didn’t let any sound come outside of it.

“And what’s bad about this?” Yok asked, Porchay’s expression far from any happiness of a sweet kiss.

“I shouldn't have…it’s P’Kim…I don’t even know if he knows what it meant, if he really wanted it, if…I didn’t even think of it first for myself…”

“I'm going…to get him.” Tankhun jumped of energy, disappearing quickly.

‘I don’t…even know…why I talk of this like this…I am sorry.”

“Come here.” Yok said, opening her arms big and Porchay didn’t know why he just had the reflex to hug her tightly. He was so lost, he had been so lonely but relationships with others looked more complicated than it ever had been.

“You didn’t do anything bad. Don’t worry and stop with that head.”

“What head?” Porchay asked, pulled away and stared at her.

“The I did bad head.” She said caressing his hair. “The I failed him head. The I am the worst of this whole world head.”

“How…do you know?” Porchay pouted, not liking that she was right on all points.

“I know… because Porsche had the same one. “

And this just pushed the boy at the edge, in a good and in a sad way. He looked like his brother, it felt great, he had a small amount of him inside him, but sad because he missed him so much, too much.

“Though I really did it to P’Kim…”

“What do you mean?” Kinn finally raised his head, looking concerned by what he was working on, before putting it aside. “What you mean by this is that Kim is an innocent lonely and traumatized boy and you just used your own power because you got a better environment to take advantage of him?”