"Please don't leave.."

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Warning: dark thoughts, suicidal thoughts just overall depressing stuff

Bill's pov

I was chilling with my friends when I noticed a really cute brunette girl. Her name was Nicole and she was in my math class. She looked pretty upset and was just writing while listening to music. I frowned and walked up to her.
"Is everything okay..?" I asked hesitantly. She looked up nervous and confused. Her brown eyes were slightly glazed with tears. She stayed silent for a few moments before shaking her head no. She started to cry and I hugged her tightly. I wanted to know what was wrong so I could help. I liked her since we were 14 and didn't want her to suffer. I took her to the hallway and she sat next to me. I took that moment to admire her. Her beautiful brown hair covering her deep brown eyes slightly. Her tearstained pale skin matching beautifully with her brown hair and brown eyes. However it pained me to see her like this. However what really hurt was when she told me about how she didn't want to live anymore. And how she felt like no one cared about her and how most of her friends started fading from her. I held her close. Not wanting this angel of a girl to slip away from me.

Nicole's pov:

I was sitting in the lunch room writing in my diary trying not to cry. Lately I've been under a lot of stress. The whole school had to move to another one due to the school collapsing and it had not been easy. Not only is finding classes a struggle my friends have also been drifting from me and I had no clue why. I felt as if I was a ghost. I kept thinking of death/ disappearing due to feeling like no one would care. I felt someone sit next to me and looked up to see bill. He was a boy in my math class that I had a crush on since freshman year. He asked if I was okay and I shook my head no. He opened his arms and I hugged him and cried. We went out to the hall and he sat me down. I took a good look at him. His spiky black hair complimenting his punk style that I adored. And his black eyeliner around his brown eyes. He asked what was wrong and I told him everything. I couldn't help it. I barely knew him but I knew I could trust him. He had an energy to him that told me that I was safe with him. I could tell my words worried him. I put my head into my knees and cried more.
"I just wanna die bill..no one would care.." I sobbed. He started crying as well. He wrapped his long arms around me.
"Please don't leave Nicole..I would care..I love you too much to allow you to leave." He cried. I looked up at him and cupped his face. He wiped some of my tears away softly. We stayed like this for a moment before he slowly kissed me. It was soft and comforting. I kissed back feeling my dull soul light up. We pulled apart and I knew I wanted to stay..
"Please don't leave..." he whispered. I smiled  softly.
"I won't I promise.." I smiled. He kissed the top of my head and we walked into the lunchroom to his friends.

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