Bill kaulitz x self insert

Stressed

Nicole's pov:

I was at the studio visiting my boyfriend bill. We had a sorta long distance relationship since he lived in Germany and I lived in New York but we made it work. However when I walked in I heard grumbling.  I peaked my head through and saw bill with his head in his hands and scribbling something in his notebook but then crossing it out. I frowned and placed my hands on his shoulders.
"Bill hon what's wrong?" I asked concerned.
"Nothing..I'm fine.." he mumbled. I didn't want my boyfriend to struggle alone especially if it's something I can help him with. I peaked over at the notebook and saw it was a song. It was in German but I learned a bit. I was a songwriter myself so I thought maybe I could help.
"Bill let me help with the song-" my sentence was cut short.
"I don't need help dammit just leave me alone! Kelly was never this annoying!" He shouted. His words stung hard. I held back tears. Bill had never raised his voice before he was always so gentle..I nodded and left without saying a word. Bill's eyes widened and he tried to grab my arm but he couldn't reach me. I went out the door. Leaving the boys confused and bill muttering something frantically under his breath.

Bill's pov:

I was super stressed about a song and Nicole just walked in at the wrong moment. I didn't mean to yell at her..my heart sank as I heard a faint whimper escape her lips as she left. The guys looked at me with confusion. I sank into my chair and felt my guilt eat me whole.
"No no no no no..." I muttered frantically as tears pierced my eyes.
"What the hell happened?!" Tom asked grabbing my shoulders to snap me back to reality. I explained the situation and Gustav spoke up.
"She really loves you bro...she's also a song writer She'll understand.." Gustav placed a hand on my shoulder. I nodded wiping tears from my cheeks. The guys gave me a pat on my back as support. I looked to see if there were any paparazzi and there of course was. I panicked. my mind went to how Nikki reacted to the paparazzi she was crying while walking out and terrified of crowds so I wondered how that went. I had security get them away and I ran to my car. My heart was racing the whole time. I tried calling her cell but she didn't answer. I cursed myself over and over again. I could barely see because of the tears covering my eyes. I got to my place and ran in. I didn't see Nicole but I saw a note.

' I was thinking you needed space so I left for a bit I'm sorry about what happened at the studio and I want you to know that if you ever need me I'll be here for you. I love you more than you could ever know.

Love, Nicole'

The note ended with her lipstick mark and some teardrops on the paper. Tears ran down my face. I needed her so badly and I pushed her away. And not to mention I called her annoying and compared her to Kelly.. I slid down the counter and cried hard. I called her phone but I heard her phone.. 'durch den Monsun'.. I knew I had to get her back. Walking around a place she barely knows without her phone isn't a good idea..I ran out the door and looked everywhere. I was passing a club when I saw Nicole stumbling out. She was clearly drunk out of her mind. I hurt her so badly she turned to something she hated to numb her pain. I pulled over and walked over to her trying to avoid anyone.
"Baby..oh god..I am so sorry.." I could tell she didn't understand due to her state. I wrapped my arm around her to get her to the car.
"Wait what are you doing I have a boyfriend!" She slurred. I put her in the car but not without her biting me.I looked at my hand and saw teeth marks in my hand. But I was happy to see my girlfriend safe and in my sight she looked over and had a drunken smile on her face
"Billll hi baby~" she slurred and started giggling as she realized it was me. I hated myself still and drove home. I took her out of the car and carried her inside. She was sleeping (thankfully..) and I put her in the bed. I closed the curtains and put her in something comfortable. I put a glass of water and some painkillers on the bedside table and held Nicole close. I stroked her tearstained cheek remembering all the things I said to her and cried. I felt AWFUL. I fell asleep and woke up to Nicole wrapped around me like a koala. She was so perfect..she stirred awake and pulled away. She looked down at her lap and whispered a sorry.
"Baby no. Don't apologize I should apologize. What I said yesterday was unacceptable..and I had no right to bring up Kelly especially say she was better in anyway..and you aren't annoying you care..you care about me more than anyone ever has..I am so sorry" my words brought her to tears and she hugged me tightly and kissed me softly. I kissed back and pulled her by the thighs onto my lap. I pulled away and held her head against my chest.
"I forgive you bill.." she whispered into my chest.
"I love you.." I mumbled into her hair. She noticed my hand and gasped.
"Bill what happened?!" Her eyes widened. I chuckled.
"You were shitfaced and bit me because you thought I was a random guy kidnapping you" I chuckled. Her face turned red.
"I am so sorry baby.." she kissed my hand. I smirked and kissed her head.
"You're so cute.." I smiled. She giggled and wrapped her body around me again. I held her close and promised to never hurt her again.