✧𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐘 𝐁𝐎𝐌𝐁✧𝕁𝕖𝕗𝕗 𝕎𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕜✧

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February 3rd
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I stroll out of my room rubbing my eyes in the process, wearing my grey plaid pyjama bottoms. I walk past Nerf and stroke his head. 'Morning Buddy.' He releases from his tightly curled up ball position and watches me walk over to the kitchen. I pull out a mug from the kitchen cupboard and begin to make a coffee. The time is currently 8:17am. I didn't get much sleep last night, well the past two nights really. My mind has been all over the place. All I've been thinking about is not going to Ari's launch party. I keep questioning to myself whether it was the right thing to do? What happens if I went and she leapt into my arms and we just resolved everything and then got back together? Have I fucked my chances of getting back with her? What if that was her way to say ' Jeff I miss you and I wanna be together again' ? Well...I'll never know. I'm taking on Natalie's advice of just staying out of her way, because like she said, if I truly loved her, I'd leave her be, even though deep down, it's the last thing I wanted to do.

I sip my coffee and take it back into my bedroom. I place the hot mug on my chest of drawers. I've decided to try and keep my mind occupied today. I've not took Nerf out for a walk the last few days, so I'll go on a hike with him. I pull out a t shirt from the top drawer and slam it shut, causing my jewellery stand to wobble and fall. None of my chains fall off except one. I look to the floor and see the gold glistening back at me, the morning sunlight hitting it in all the right places. I reach down and pick it up bringing it closer to my eyes. 

A & J

It was the chain Ari got me for my 28th birthday, just gone. I unclasp the chain and wrap it around my wrist. I caress the engraving as my heart sinks. A few tears build in my eyes, but they don't get a chance to stream down my face as my hands block their exit, due to me rubbing the tears away. I throw on my t shirt and change out of the grey plaid bottoms to some running shorts. Slip my trainers on and grab Nerf's lead.

'Come on buddy!' I beckon towards the small dog, that Ari still classed as a puppy. I smile at the thought of her and Nerf. I leave my apartment and lock the door. I get into the elevator with Nerf's lead in one hand, my hiking strap in the other and the gold engraved chain around my wrist.

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ*

I sit up in bed and stretch out my legs, looking over and around my bare bedroom. I still hadn't fully decorated my house. The living room and kitchen were done. It was the bedrooms that needed sorting. I have 2 other spare bedrooms which one is going to be turned into an 'at home' studio and the other will be a guest bedroom, but currently they are both just storage containers full of random boxes that I had to bring from the juicer because of Carmen, Destiny and Tyla not taking the things inside of them when they left. I needed to rummage through it all but I've not had the motivation to even get out of bed on my days off, let alone sort a bunch of shit out. I check my phone and as I pick it up, the time strikes 9:36am.

I get up out of my bed, wearing a pink plaid t shirt and shorts set, then proceed to waltz through to the kitchen where I walk past Boots and so I bend down, kiss him on the head. 'Good morning my boy.' I softly say as his legs pop out of the blanket that he had over him. I shuffle along towards the kitchen cupboard and grab a glass which I fill with water. I open my medicine cabinet and pull out the orange tube with the stamp saying Ari Armstrong 02/11/1994 Antidepressants , I open the lid slip two of them out and wash them down with ease. It's not like I've not done it a thousands times before.