If I was Yours

Chapter 30: Gone

-Hiccup's POV-

"I love you Astrid" I whispered. She didn't respond so my heart started beating fast. I held her hand squeezing it slightly waiting for her response but she just looked at me with teary eyes.

"How could you say that? You- you may be just confused because Merida and you fought and broke up.. probably.. don't say that" she pleads helplessly and I shook my head

"I'm not confused. I've been pushing these feelings away and not acknowledging them. But now I'm not doing that so please.. don't push me away. I plead that you would say it too.. say that you love me" I respond breathlessly

She cries slightly before nodding and saying what I've been waiting for most "I love you too" and with that I pressed my lips against hers closing the gap between us. Our lips move in sync and as the kiss deepened the closer our body pressed against each other. Finally, we both pulled away breathing heavily as we caught our breath.

I pressed my forehead against hers and caressed her cheeks softly, our eyes closed as I felt her breath so close to mine. "I love you.. but I don't think we should be together" I halted and opened my eyes

"Why?" I asked her and she looked at me

"Merida said that I like you that's why I posted that video even though it's not true if we dated her accusations of me would be proven a fact.." she replied with a bitter sweet. I didn't think of that..

"We'll figure it out." I say confidently. I didn't want to lose her now.

"I'm sorry.. I think you should just kill your feelings for me and I'll do the same. It'll be problematic if we enter a relationship now" she sighs

"Can't you stay with me? I'll address the issue since it's gone out, please Astrid.." I plead but she didn't give in

"I'm sorry.. I just can't do this. Everything is too complicated and it's extremely inconvenient for us to date at this time" she said one last time before standing up to leave but I held her hand tight so she wouldn't be able to.

"I know.. I'll fix it please! I'll fix this just wait for me." I say pulling her back to my embrace

"Astrid please" I whispered through her ears and I felt her trembling

"As much as I want to keep you by my side things are too complicated for us Hiccup. I think we need to separate and enjoy our life all on our own for a while" she says with little sniffles before trying to pull away from my tight embrace but I was so scared I didn't even let go and I just pulled her closer to me.

"Astrid no! Please.. don't leave me. Don't break my heart" I cried at her shoulder as her hand caresses my hair to comfort me. She kissed my head before saying goodbye and with all her strength she broke free with force from me and ran away. I just broke down and cried for a minute straight and Fishlegs came over and sit down beside me.

"Where is she?" I ask him wiping my tears away. Fishlegs handed me a handkerchief and says

"She's gone home, back to Berk. She told me to hand you her handkerchief because she had a hunch that you were crying." He replied. I took the handkerchief and looked at it tearing up once more as I appreciate the handkerchiefs beauty before using it to wipe my tears. I knew that her going back home was a lie. Astrid wouldn't leave the gang here with no transportation back home so she's still here, Fishlegs just didn't want me to know because I might run looking for her.

"Do you think I could use her handkerchief as an excuse to see her again?" I ask sobbing a little

"Maybe. But not soon, she says she's going to travel somewhere far before coming back home" Fishlegs says