WHAT THEY SEE

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WHAT THEY SEE

HARLEM BANKS
SEPTEMBER 15th, 2023.
FRIDAY 3:52 pm

I DON'T KNOW what I was thinking when I came out and told Dakari that I was pregnant, but now the notion of it had me sick to my stomach.

I knew I was pregnant, but just thinking about it wasn't what I wanted for myself.

Especially because Dakari wasn't the father, and I was afraid my lie would come back to bite me in the ass.

I knew for a fact I had messed up as soon as the words passed my lips.

I had planned on terminating the pregnancy before Dakari could know about it, or even take an abortion pill and play like it was a miscarriage so at least he would never question it.

Then I just heard one of those kids calling him daddy, and I knew the only way he would be tied to me forever was through a baby.

I never meant to cheat on him, I just felt like I was getting deprived of something that I shouldn't have been. So when I took matter into my own hands, I was rather reckless with it and now I regretted it.

I knew once he found out that not only I cheated, but lied about a baby being his, we would be done.

And I couldn't let that happen, so now I was going to take matters into my own hands and go with plan C. I was going to take an abortion pill, and play it off as a miscarriage.

That was the only way we would be able to move past this.

If I were to ever get caught, he would have no right to question me on my wrong doings! He'd cheated on me twice.

And even now, I couldn't even keep him away from honesty like the last bitch because they shared them ugly ass kids together. The shit was sick, and I was bout ready to just go over to Honestys house and beat her ass.

Now all of a sudden Dakari is a family man, wanting to spend time with the bastards that honesty claims are his, but I still doubt it.

What really threw me in for a loop though, was when Dakari came out and admitted that they had fucked before, when she was only fourteen.

On some hoe shit.

I realized that the love they had for each other back then was way deeper than I could've ever imagined. I always figured Dakari chased her, because that's what she wanted. She seemed like the type to beg for attention so that's what I pinned it as.

Now I see I was wrong, but I was still hesitant on admitting it. She had trapped my man, and there was nothing I could do about it because we're four years too late.

All I could do was hope that he swabbed them kids, and he came back not the father.

Or I could at least create some distance between them as well. Make them only communicate through nalas fake weirdo ass.

Their mother on the other hand, she didn't even need to know about the kids. That would give honesty way more leverage over me and I didn't know if I could handle that.

I should always be favorite and come first in the parents eyes, and I knew all that would change because a baby mother would be more like family than me.