10th February
My back is alright; it's just a minor issue that can be resolved through physiotherapy, which is great news. I am extremely grateful and happy. I am about to complete my book soon; it will be like a really short story about a situational romance I wrote. It's a good achievement that in 2024 I wrote a short story through consistent writing. Which is splendid. I am loving myself more and more every day. Dating myself has been a great journey so far. I have made new friends and volunteered at various places. I took a stand for myself, conserving my energy and finding my way through living a complete life with its ups and downs and processing emotions. I am learning to like my job like I used to. Understanding reality means living less in my delusional world. The real world is being kind these days, thanks to God, my mom, my friends, and my consistent self. I love you all.
I don't miss my old days anymore like I used to before because of the confidence I lacked in life. Now I feel confident that all my therapy, anxiety pills, journaling, socializing, and adapting hobbies are working so well. I am just appreciating whatever comes my way and loving each day, not overthinking or worrying about the worst outcomes. Thanks to my Jaipur friend, who taught me something I hadn't been able to learn for a long time. I am getting over this feeling of losing people; just loving myself first is the solution to all my problems and nothing more. I feel content on my evening dates, where I sip coffee all alone while writing my journal or listening to songs, feeling mesmerized. I am happy, I am content, I am grateful, I am loved, and happy Valentine's Week to me. I gifted roses and chocolates to some of my friends yesterday. Today I bought gifts for Valentine's Day for the ones who stay in my vicinity, my consistent people. I'll give them on Valentine's Day. I really wanted to do it today, but then Valentine's Day will make it more beautiful and special for them. I didn't buy anything for myself yet, but God gave me the best gift of all: no issues with my back, no medications, no injections, no surgeries, just physiotherapy. I might buy something like a top from H&M in pink or a Barbie collectible that fits from the kid section 12–13 years old, which would be perfect. I am excited. I'll visit Bappa on Saturday, then go to Palladium with Mom.
