A Teenage Love Affair

A Teenage Love Affair: Chapter 38- What It's All About

People always think that the most painful thing is losing the one you love in your life. The truth is—the most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much.

I went back home and told my dad not to entertain Marky whenever he comes right at the door. Both he and Amy had a lot of questions but I refused to answer. I just remained in my room in time to hear the familiar sound of Marky’s car. I peeked out the window to see him and my dad talking and I have watched Marky leave empty-handed.

“Are you sure you don’t want to talk to him?” my dad enters my room.

I closed the curtains as soon as his car was out of sight. I shook my head at my dad.

“I clearly messed up with everything. I’m really sorry I’m quite a disappointment to you.” I told him as I went back to my bed.

“Just because you failed to make the right things this time doesn’t mean you have to be a disappointment.” He tells me. “Giving birth to that baby is a great risk. You got a little Valkyrie in you.”

“And that little Valkyrie of yours gave her away.” I started to cry. “I am so mad at mom that I’ve failed to realize that I’m no different than her. I’m even worse.”

“There’s always room for mistakes, Dennise. Without them we won’t learn. You may have been wrong now but you have to rebuild yourself. You cannot stay like this forever.”

I felt a pang of guilt in my chest. “I’m such a screw up.”

My dad placed his arms around me. “No, you’re not. Don’t shut yourself from the world. And don’t shut us out too.”

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I went back to school the next day trying to hide the mess of my face. People still looked at me as I pass the hallways. Of course, I’m quite famous since the game. Evan had turned out to use the mic at the field to announce that I was already in labor. I couldn’t blame him if he did that since it’s his only way to get to telling Marky.

 “Why are you shutting me out?” I felt myself hold on to my breath. There’s a knife to my chest once again. I didn’t shut the door to my locker. I know that he’s just on the other side.

“What happened to the wave-at-me-if-I-don’t-glare-at-you thing we both agreed?”

I closed my door shut and I walked away from a different direction. He grabs hold of my arm and forces me to turn around. I looked down at the floor except his face.

“What happened to us? We were both okay, right?” he sighs away. “Dennise, please say something!” he hits one of the lockers and we start to draw attention.

I slowly looked up at him. “There was never an us or we, Marky.”

He looks at me in disbelief. He bristles. “No—you can’t leave me hanging. Come back to me—“

“I don’t want.to.go.back.to.you.” I gritted my teeth.

“You are a terrible liar.” He says it like it was poison to his mouth.

I scoffed. “No. I’m not. There were no us. Just face it! Before we even got into this mess there was never us. We can’t even call ourselves a couple. So just leave me be.”

I turned around but he still held me.

“Let her go.” Sydney says. Amy lingers behind him.

“You stay out of this, Syd. She’s none of your concerns. She’s not your girlfriend.” Marky tells him.