Random Encouragement

Bands didn't kill your kids

My Chemical Romance didn't get your kid beat up
Pierce the Veil didn't give your kid depression
All Time Low didn't give your kid anxiety
Of Mice and Men didn't make your kid feel all alone
Motionless in White didn't make your kid starve them self
Bring Me The Horizon didn't make your kid hate themselves
Black Veil Brides didn't make your kid cut them self
Falling in Reverse didn't make your kid pop pills
BANDS DIDN'T KILL YOUR KIDS!! PARENTS YOU DID!!! YOUR DECISION TO JUDGE AND IGNORE THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON YOU WILL EVER KNOW DID!! YOUR LIVES ARE NOT THAT IMPORTANT, AND CIRTAINLY DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO DO A SHIT JOB OF HANDLING YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO BE THE BEST, MOST UNDERSTANDING, CARING , RESPECTABLE, SHINNING BEACON OF WHAT AN ADULT IS SUPPOSED TO BE. NOT A SNIFFLING, GROVELING, ANGER CHOKED, STUPID, JUDGMENTAL, IGNORANT, KNOW IT ALL WHO'S ONLY REAL WORRY IS DO I HAVE TO WORK LATE TOMORROW....
VALIDATE THE FUCK OUT OF YOUR KIDS, CHERISH THEM AS THE PRICELESS, UNIQUE, MARVELOUS GEMS THRU ARE.
IF THEY AREN'T ITS YOUR FUALT! !STOP BLAMING THEM FOR YOUR SHORT COMINGS!! oh, It's just so hard you don't understand, your just a kid yourself, what could you possibly know about parenting?
Well, to answer you like the almost adult (fucking gags) that I am. .. It's just that I always wished my parent's were kind to me, understanding, polite, not judge me wrong, I always wished they'd tell me Adalaine, you did a good job, Adalaine, it's ok maybe next time, Adalaine, do you need help with your homework, Adalaine, yes of course what you think matters, let's hear it, Adalaine what do you want? Dad, can you help me on my report? it's due tomorrow.. of course Adalaine, let me turn off the t.v...
Do you see what I mean? I always thought a good parent is someone that admits their fualts and mistakes,stands up for their kids, yes ,punishes them when they are wrong BUT NOT FUCKING ABUSE THEM, a child that is not give reasonable boundries (rules) grows up feeling ignored,uncared about " oh my aren't let me do whatever I want..yeah I know, they DONT care about me..:( 
Idk, just thinking out loud...maybe kinda thinking a parent will read this and think" I do alot of this negative things..I love my kid
I didn't realze...I'm going to set it straight by my ACTIONS that will back up my words"
Hell, Idk...wishful thinking I guess...I'm don't have any parents now..no mom to hold me when I'm crying, no dad to teach me how to change my oil or tire when it's flat or beat up my ex cause he was a jerk to me (: I wanna cry again..I know this supposed to be positives all thru. ...I'm sorry....plea don't hate me..I'm trying..im trying.
I've never really accomplished anything enough to do it again...to think about not  just myself when doing something...
I don't want my words to bring anyone down just know I won't always be strong...I'm still cry at times, I'm going to do my best not to self injure..I really, really want to stop!! I don't want to be this bony, skinny, I want curves,hips,My face is sunken in, my clothes are so big on me, I get sick thinking about food, I don't want to be like that anymore. I'm free for the first time in my life but I don't know where to go, Wich way to turn...I have a roof over my head,I have a comfortable bed now, I think I'm cared about, Idk I feel alive instead of dead..But still there's something missing I need that, whatever it is, to complete me.(Sarcastically )No, not a boyfriend!!
Not yet, I still have my favorite...toy, he keeps me company in the shower (I'm such a slut hehehe)
Does this make any sense? Can someone help me???please.
Adalaine