I haven't spoken to Mark in almost three weeks, I had planned on going to his place today to get more clothes but I know if I went I'll be weaker than I already am. I've been staying with my friend for the three weeks and she's been telling me over and over again not to take him back, but with all of the pleading text messages and his friends telling me how much of a wreck he's been these past weeks is making it harder to deny, that I just might take him back.
"Seriously (Y/N), he's a dick for hurting you like this and he doesn't deserve you." she said crossing her arms across her chest. "(Y/F/N)! Can I just be in charge of my own feelings without people telling me what to do? Mark and have been together for two years, we were going to get married for Christ sake. I can't just throw that away." I say sternly. Lately a lot of my family and friends have been telling me to just leave Mark all together, but I'm not going to let other people choose my actions for me.
I have actually been really missing Mark, but I wanted him to feel some type remorse, and out all of the pleas for my forgiveness and to take him back, told me all I needed to know. "I understand that (Y/N), but he cheat-" I stop her in mid sentence. "I'm going to Mark's." I say grabbing my purse and keys and walking out of her apartment door.
No one understood how much I loved Mark, everyone was against me marrying him. 'You've only been together for two years' was what they would tell me, but I knew me and Mark were meant to be, and I was determined to keep that fire burning.
I walk up to Mark's door scared shitless. I take a deep breath and knock lightly. No answer, so I knock again, but there was still no answer. My heart fell out of my chest and onto the floor in front of me, I had came all this way to give him another chance and he's not even giving me the time of day. I had started to regret that I had ignored him for all this time. As I back away, holding back tears, the door slowly opens and reveals a Mark that I had never seen before. My eyes widen at the sight of him, he was slouched but yet I could see his beautiful brown eyes blood shot red. He hadn't noticed who I was yet, and as he ran his hand through is messy pink hair he looked up at me.
His eyes lit up, as much as they could in the state they were in, at the sight of me. "B-baby?" he looked like was was going to burst into tears all over again. "Y-you came back." he said, his voice coming out as a whimper. "Yeah I did." I say stepping closer to him. I wrap my arms around his neck and he wraps his around my waist basically falling into me. He squeezed so tight around my waist, but it didn't hurt. The way he held so tight showed me how sorry he really was without words.
"I missed you so much baby." he whimpered into my neck. "I missed you too Mark, but I have one thing to say before we do this again." I say releasing him from the embrace and stepping into the apartment, closing the door behind us. "Anything for you (Y/N)." he says looking into my eyes.
"Y-you have to stay faithful to me Mark, no more cheating. I'm giving you this second chance because I love you with all of my heart and I can't let what we have slip away." I say eyes filling with tears. "(Y/N) baby, cheating on you was the worst mistake I've ever made in my life, and I promise you I will never hurt you again. I love you to much to lose you again. Being with you these last two years was the best thing that's ever happened to me." he says taking my hands. As he said those words I felt the tears fall down my cheek. Mark raised his hand and wiped it away.
"You look a mess Mark." I said giggling slightly. He sighed and ran his fingers through is hair again "I know, I haven't recorded since you walked out of my door three weeks ago." he said with a sad smile. I felt a wave of gilt hit me like a ton of bricks. YouTube was Mark's everything, he loved entertaining his ten million subscribers so much and I took all of him happiness with me the day I left him. "I'm sorry Mark, I took the one thing you loved so much away from you." I say letting my head fall to the floor. "Hey, hey no! This is all my fault love, I did this! You had every right to walk out and leave me like you did. It was my fault that I was in such a unhappy place, and I couldn't even imagine how you felt and I'm so sorry." he said lifting my chin up with his finger. His eyes were filling with tears again and it broke me.
"Can we just move past all of this pain Mark? I want to be happy again, with you." I say wrapping my arms around his torso. All I've ever wanted was happiness and Mark did that for me, I just wanted our old life back. "Of course baby, that's all I've ever wanted, all I'll ever want." he said kissing my forehead. "I love you so much (Y/N), and if you want we can turn the engagement back on." he smiled down at me. "I'd love that." I say leaving a lingering kiss his soft pink lips. "God I've missed your lips." he whispered against my lips with his eyes still closed.
He slowly reached into the pocket of his dark washed jeans and pulled out my engagement ring. "I never gave up hope that you'd come back." he said going down onto one knee. "(Y/N) (L/N) I promise to never hurt you ever again, to cherish every ounce of love you give me and to never squander my chance of making you my wife ever again. So will you marry me, again?" he said smiling up at me, his beautiful brown eyes returning. "Yes, baby. Always." I say as he placed the ring back onto my ring finger.
"I have to say, it feels good to have this back on." I laugh as Mark stands back up and wraps his arms around my waist. I look up at his smile and I know for a fact that I made the right choice in taking him back, he was the man I loved, through thick and thin, and I was going to keep it that way.
Sooooooo, I know this part was long over due and I'm really sorry for that, but I hope you liked it. And if you wouldn't have taken him back in real life I'm sorry...don't be mad (;
And usual thank you for reading and voting, it means a lot!
-Brittany <3
