Afraid • l.h

Chapter 23 • "I was selfish."

Luke's POV

"I'm sorry I really am. I should have told you and I'm an idiot for not. I just didn't want you worried about it and being distracted by me at school. I'm really sorry." I practically beg her to forgive me in a subtle way.

"It's okay. I will see you tomorrow." She says and kisses me on the check. Then she climbs out of the car. "Get some rest."

"I will. See you tomorrow." I say as she shuts the car door and I start the engine. Something tells me she hasn't forgiven me but I really hope that isn't true.

I drive home and it is only a matter of a few minutes until I am up stairs in my room lying down to try and get some rest like Tilly said.

Tilly's POV

To see Luke like that was horrible but I just couldn't believe that he didn't tell me what happened sooner. I realised now that I didn't even ask how it happened or who knows. I was a little selfish actually because I was upset that he didn't tell me sooner but then again he was knocked out and I don't know when he woke up. Also no body knows about us. God I was selfish.

I quickly pull out my phone and text Luke if I can come over and moments later he says that is fine. I quickly change my outfit as I have been in it all day and then grab a drink out of the cupboard and my phone.

After a ten minute walk because I can't drive yet I reach Luke's house. I knock at the door and when it opens I am greeted by Luke's mum, I think.

"Hello, I'm Tilly." I say and smile. First impressions are always how people are seen in the future.

"Ahh Tilly, Luke's upstairs. Come in." She welcomes me.

"Thank you um.."

"Liz." She smiles.

"Thank you Liz." I say and take my shoes off before going upstairs to find Luke.

Luke's room stands out because plastered all over the door is bands and guitars.

"Hey." I say quietly walking in and see Luke lying on his bed looking at the ceiling.

"Hey." He says not moving.

"How are you feeling?" I ask.

"Terrible." He says.

"Why don't you put something over it to help the pain." I suggest.

"It's not that that's making me feel terrible. It was not telling you. I'm such an idiot." He says and I can see tears forming in his eyes.

"It's okay, I was being selfish. You were knocked out for god knows how long and also no body knows about us so you couldn't have told anyone to tell me really." I say.

"But I would want you to tell me if you were in the same position." He says.

"It's okay." I reassure him.

"Are you sure?" He questions.

"I'm sure."

"Thank you." He says and sit down on the floor next to his bed. "But Tilly." He starts. "I had to tell Ashton, Calum and Michael about us." He tells me. I'm surprised and I can't understand why but it was going to happen someday so I'm not annoyed.

"Why?" I ask.

"Because the doctor asked them if they knew someone called Tilly as I have been calling your name out whilst I was waking up and so they came in and asked why I was calling your name." He says.

"Aww Luke. It's okay." I tell him.

"Can you do me a favour?" He asks.

"Of course. What is it?"