Forever Blaze (Sequel to Good Match)

Why

Why I didn't update today/yesterday (it's 1 a.m. so idk)

Okay, so I've written out a lot for the next chapter. (okay... 500 words only but... meh.) And I'm sorry I didn't write enough to post and... It's entirely my fault.

I've putting off doing the outline for my research paper on Isaac Newton. In class when we were supposed to be typing our notes into our outlines, I decided I didn't want to and instead typed in song lyrics when my teacher wasn't looking. 

I was supposed to be spending the weekend spacing out doing the essay. Instead of spacing it out, my past self placed all the responsibility on present self.

Now, had I have a normal, happy life, this could have been easy breezy and I would've updated today. 

Instead I was cursed with a complicated life and laptop.

This is what happened today when I sat down to write my essay:

4:00 p.m.

*sits down*

*opens the tabs including the outline my teacher wrote out, my notes, the school research website, and google.*

*shrugs and also opens up Wattpad and Netflix 'for later'*

*stays on Netflix and watches four episodes of How I Met Your Mother*

6:00 p.m.

*looks at time*

"CRAP!"

*closes Netflix and opens YouTube*

*plays Ed Sheeran playlist*

*Opens Wattpad to quickly close it*

*starts typing up the next chapter of this instead of my essay*

7:00 p.m.

*looks at time*

*cringes*

*deletes wattpad tab to erase temptation*

*starts typing essay*

8:34 p.m. 

*clicks on google to look up what the Laws of Motion are since I didn't pay attention in science last year when we learned them*

*computer freezes*

"NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!! DON'T DO IT! DON'T- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"

*sobs as all my tabs erase*

*quickly opens them all back up* 

*sees that most of my work didn't automatically save like it's supposed to*

*full on tears go down face*

*goes and talks to my mom about it"

My mom: "Take deep breaths. Walk away from the computer. Go to the kitchen, take out the sherbet and eat some. Then, when you're done, walk back to your room. Sit down on your bed, take another deep breath... And say a prayer. Then, when you're done, start again. Just take a break*

*does everything my mom said*

*says five prayers and literally offers to do whatever God asks for twelve years*

9:00 p.m.

*finishes second paragraph*

*wipes sweat off forehead*

"Only four more paragraphs to go- oh crap. No, no, no, no, no, noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

*computer deletes all tabs again*

(opens up tabs again to see this time, all the work from before and now deleted*

*rolls of bed and face plants the pillow I put on the ground*

My little sister: "Hey, are you okay"

Me: *sobbing into pillow* [mumbles] no.

My little sister: "Do you want me to read you a bedtime story"

*gets up and walks back to my mom's and dad's room to tell my mom what she said*

*asks mom if we can skip seminary tomorrow... mom says no*

*asks mom if I can pull all nighter if I don't finish... mom says no*

*asks mom if we can skip family scriptures #firsttimeactuallyreadingthebookofMormoneventhoughIvebeenMormonmyentirelife... mom says yes*

*mom calls my older sister and little sister into the room for a prayer*

Me: I need Jesus right now. Lots and lots of Jesus. Focus the prayer on me."

*little sister says prayer and literally says "and please give turtle lots and lots of Jesus" in the prayer*

9:45 p.m.

*all the tabs shut down again but this time everything had saved*

*thanks God for giving me Jesus*

11:00 p.m.

Me: "Only two more paragraphs to go. Whoop whoop!"

12:43 a.m.

*writes last line of the outline*

End with a powerful or thought-provoking idea.: Okay it's 12:43 a.m. and I'm not in a 'thought provoking idea' state of mind right now so I'll just write one on the rough draft and fix that later if that's fine with you. I just can't do that right now. Sorry Mrs. M. 

[literally not joking. That's the end of my essay's outline xD]

I WILL NOT BE UPDATING TOMORROW/TODAY... MAYBE

My mother will be having a surgery tomorrow (it's gross... they're taking out some of her insides in her stomach I think) and idk if that effects me or not so I'm not sure if I'll be updating or not. All I know is I'm really tired. I spent 30 minutes (it's literally 1:30 a.m. haha the timing xD) writing this out so you guys know what's going on and I have to wake up at 5:20 a.m. 

Good night.