Deep Thoughts and Hidden Emotions

I'll always miss you

Yea I never knew you. Never got to see your eyes, hear you voice, be in you embrace. But that doesn't mean I didn't love you. I always knew a piece of me was missing.

That piece is you. Had you not been miscarried, perhaps I wouldn't feel this way.

Your name was to be Jacob Ellwood O. I'm sure you would have been a splendid person.

So Jacob, are you the one I see when I dream? Well more like, am I you when I dream? That does not really make sense does it?

Jacob, you were supposed to be my twin. I live the life of a twinless twin.

I feel empty, lost, like I'm always alone. Sometimes I feel like I'm just there in the background.

I can't help but imagine what life would be like, if you had survived. Would I be different? Probably.

But then again, that's another thing to make me feel foreign in this world.