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thirteen

iris valentine

it was sometime around four in the afternoon and i was still at shawn's house. we were in the living room continuing our conversation. we caught up and he didn't make anything awkward between us after what i told him. "i can't believe so much can happen in 3 weeks, it felt like a year," i exaggerated and shawn let out a chuckle.

"i-i'm gonna get some water," shawn abruptly stood up and walked to the kitchen, leaving me alone on his couch. i couldn't help but wonder what was on his mind. i hope he wasn't thinking about what i said earlier, i didn't want to hurt him. i felt bad–no, i felt horrible that i had to say that to him. i really wanted to clear the air with him and he did seem really happy with gabriella too and now i'm rambling in my mind.

what's happening to me?

while he was in the kitchen i couldn't help but think about him and how amazing he is. he's a perfect guy but i just messed up.

shawn comes back and sets a glass of water down on top of the coffee table. he sat further than he did a while ago and avoided eye contact with me and i couldn't help but overthink. did i do something?

"so," shawn says, snapping me out of my thoughts, "i kinda have some papers to do for, uh.. my job and i-i think you should go." his words made my heart drop and i bit the inside of my cheek, "i'm sorry i just completely forgot i need to get it done by tomorrow."

i nodded, "it's fine, i have to meet up with jack anyways so it's cool," i say standing up and he copies my actions. i lean in for a hug, making shawn wrap his arms around me too. he didn't make it awkward and i mentally thanked him for that. i opened my mouth to say something but closed it and made my way to the door with shawn following behind.

he opens the door to let me out but before i could leave, shawn's hand wraps around my wrist lightly, making me stop in my steps. "uh, i'll call you later, yeah?" he asks and i nod my head before he lets go of my wrist and shuts the door.

fuck, oh fuck, fuck me, fuck him, holy fuck.

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short update haha my bad

im starting to write again but i dont know if im gonna stick to this book but anyway

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