The Ignored Wife (Published by PSICOM)

20: Control

"Sometimes even your self can not be trusted." -jazlykdat

***

  Published by PSICOM Publishing Inc. Now available in bookstores nationwide for Php175. Grab your copies now.  

***

Pakiramdam ni Lianna ay nakatitig sa kanya si Vaughn. Pero ayaw niyang mag-angat ng tingin. She's afraid he might not be looking at her, masasaktan lang siya.

At bakit naman ito titingin sa kanya?

Mag-iisip ng paraan para pahirapan siya?

Napailing siya sa naisip. She's becoming too judgmental of him again. Ganitong-ganito din siya noon sa asawa. She never gave him the benefit of the doubt.

Where did it lead them?

Ayaw na niyang maulit ang nangyari noon. She had to stop interpreting his actions. Baka naman wala talaga itong masamang intensyon.

Masakit lang kasing isipin na ang masasayang nangyari noon ay hindi na maaaring maulit. But until he drives her away, hinding-hindi siya aalis na lang basta kahit gaano man kasakit.

She's not a masochist. She just thinks her kids deserve a whole family, kahit pa masaktan siya sa lahat ng pinapakita ni Vaughn araw-araw.

Every kid deserves a whole family and every parent has that inherent responsibility to provide a family that's whole to their children. Masakit man, that's what should parents do, sacrifice their own happiness for their kids.

She doesn't want her children to become rebellious dahil lang sa hindi buo ang pamilya nila. While it is true that her children are intelligent at marunong ng umintindi sa sitwasyon pero mga bata pa rin sila. Maaaring maintindihan nila ang sitwasyon but she is sure that deep inside every child's heart, whose parents were separated, ay ang pagnanais na sana ipinaglaban man lang ng mga magulang nila na mabuo ang pamilya nila.

Kahit noong nasa Davao pa sila, she's been thinking about that. She's so afraid that the situation might turn her children to become delinquent and rebellious. Kahit pa gaano kalaking pagmamahal at pagpapaliwanag ibigay niya, it will never cover up their need of a father.

And now that she was given this chance na maaari pang mabuo ang pamilya nila, she's never giving up.

She was oblivious of time. Parang ang tagal na nila sa loob ng restaurant. Paunti-unti lang kasi ang kain niya pero naubos na pala niya ang dalawang servings.

She looked at Vaughn. Nakatutok ito sa hawak nitong phone.

Kaya naman pala hindi nagsasalita kanina pa, may ka-chat yata o ka-text.

Her heart twinged.

Paano pala kung may iba na itong minamahal? And he was just civil enough not to drag her away?

She inhaled deeply. No. Unless he tells her, she'll never assume that.

She wanted to avert her gaze when he looked at her but it was too late. Nakita na siya nitong nakatitig sa kanya habang kinakalikot ang cell phone nito. Pinanindigan na lamang niya ang pagtingin rito.

"I was just checking on the kids," saad nito. Lianna wasn't able to grasp what he said until he raised his phone.

Why is he explaining?

Dahil ba sa nahuli siya nitong nakatuon ang pansin sa ginagawa nitong pagte-text?

Hindi naman niya kailangang mag-explain.