never enough → josh william dun

Part 3.

I pull into my driveway and get out of my car. Just as I was getting out of the car to my luck the school bus drove past and all of the kids started throwing food at me. It was like a fucking picnic! I give them all the bird and wipe myself off. I smell terrible so I walk inside and go straight to the bathroom. I look at my self in the dirty, stained mirror and wonder why I put up with them, why I don't report it to the school and then I remember, because I am stronger then that.

I reach into the cupboard and do the same as I did this morning. I won't go into detail because you already know how I do it. But I have one thing I want to explain to you, the way I feel when I finally slice open the skin, the feeling is like a drug to me I just can't get enough of it.

I strip off and head into the shower. I don't ever turn the cold on In the shower, just the hot. Yeah it sculds me but it feels so amazing. I write lyrics of the last song I listened to onto the foggy glass of the shower and then turn off the water. I walk back into my room and chuck on a pair of black jeans and a plain white shirt paired with my signature black leather jacket and black boots.

I get a message:
From: Josh
Hey Av, I'm just texting to see if your still coming :)

To: Josh
Hey Josh, yeah I'm still on :) be there soon.

I smile as I read his text. It feels really good to have someone else text you rather then your mum and dad. I finish my makeup and just chuck on my fedora. I walk outside into my car and blast the music, this time listening to Arctic Monkeys
"All I'm try'na say is are you mine?" I sing as I pull into Josh's drive way. I
Get out of my car and walk up to his house. Number 287 Edward Ave. I knock on the door and sure enough Josh answers. Just as Josh was about to speak I hear
"hey Jish you wouldnt happen to have any Doritos would you?" Coming from inside the house.
I squint my eyes and peer inside but I can't see anyone.
"Haha come in, I'll introduce you to Ty" says Josh.
We walk down a hallway which leads off into several rooms, one being the kitchen which we Happen to turn into.
"Josh did you not hear me?!" Says Tyler and he turns around to face Josh
"Oh you must be Ava!! Hi I'm Tyler but you can call me Ty. Jishwa hasn't stopped talking about you all afternoon"
I turn to face Josh and his face is bright red
"Jishwa?" I say with a smirk on my face
"It's just a nickname he has for me" says Josh blushing and looking down at the ground.

Me and Tyler started talking for about an hour while Josh was setting up his drums and I found out a lot about Ty. He has a girlfriend called Jenna, he plays several different instruments and can sing and he loves tattoos.
"So Ava, I heard you play ukulele?" Ty asks.
"Oh yeah I guess I'm ok at it" I say with a small smile.
"Show me what you got" Ty says handing me his ukulele
"Uh-oh no I'm not that good" I say nervously
"Seriously I don't judge." He says with a smile
"Ok I'll play can't help falling in love"
I start playing and by the end of it I find myself singing and I stop in my tracks. My face goes red and I feel sick
"What's wrong? That was amazing why did you stop?" Asks Ty
"I-I-I-uh I didn't mean to start singing" I say
"Who cares your voice is so beautiful!" says Josh walking out of the lounge room.
"Oh no you heard me too!" I say
"Yes Ava, you are an amazing singer!" Exclaims Josh
"I agree!" Says Ty
"Thanks guys I've never been confident enough to sing In front of anyone before." I say
"But enough about me, I came here to watch you two now get up there and entertain me!" I say laughing whilst the boys jolt up and run to their instruments

"I've been thinking too much, help me" sings Tyler as he strums the last few chords to their song Ride.
"OH MY GOD THAT WAS AMAZING!!" I say as the boys walk over to me.
"You really think?" Says Josh
"I really know!" I say
"You two really have a future in this business!" I say
"Thanks Av, but I should really start to head home" says Ty
"It's been a long day and I need my rest" he says
"Rightio by Ty" I say as I give him knuckles
"I should probably head off too Jish" I've started to call Josh, Jish now.
"Awww I don't want you to go" says Josh with a pouty face
"Don't worry dude I'll come pick you up tomorrow morning before school" I say with a smile. I give him a hug and head home

In the car and can't help but smile at how well my life is going at the moment and maybe, just maybe I will finally learn how to be happy.