never enough → josh william dun

Part 10

I wake up intertwined with Josh. The feeling of his soft skin against mine makes me feel safe. It gives me a kind of comfort that I have never been able to experience before. His scent. He smells of cologne and a soft hint of mint. I take in his features that I haven't looked at with much depth before. Like the way his forehead has wrinkles from when he laughs, how long his eyelashes really are, how soft his hair looks but really it's just dead, how perfectly chapped his lips are. It wasn't until he said something that I realised he was awake.
"Like i've said before, it's rude to stare." He says with a smirk
"But you're just perfect." I say staring at him, no smile, all seriousness.
He leans up to peck me on the lips and I don't refuse.
"I love you." He says staring into my eyes
"I love you too." I say I'm return.
I get up and remember before I fell asleep I threw on his shirt over the top of my underwear. I look down and smile.
"Where are you going? " he asks
"I am going to shower." I say
He flops back down onto the bed and groans. I just laugh.

Today we had no plans. We were just going to sleep, eat, cuddle, watch movies and play board games. It was raining which was weird considering it had been sunny all week.
"Hey Av, have you seen my-" he stops dead in his tracks, still wet with only a towel covering him.
"Um Josh, this is my mum, Felicity." I say pointing to a lady in a suit and her hair in a bun.
"Hi Josh......It's, um, It's nice to meet you."
"It's nice to meet you too Mrs Bateman, sorry it had to be like this." He says with a chuckle
"Uh....yes." My mother says as she looks him up and down with disgust.
"Well I'm going to go get dressed, I will be back in a minute." Says Josh
"You couldn't of picked a more scratty boy, could you!" Says my mum
"What?!" I say with disgust written all over my face
"His hair is pink, he has earnings and tattoos for gods sake Ava!" She's whisper/yells
"Leave!" I say as I point to the door.
"You can't make me leave, I own the fucking house!" She yells back at me
"Well you haven't for the past nine months! I've been paying the bills, buying food, I even got the walls fucking pained ok! I own the house now fucking leave!"
"You're not my fucking child! This isn't how I raised you! I bet that boy did this to you!"
"Go fuck your self! I'm glad I'm glad I'm not your child because if I was then that means you would have to be my mother and I would rather kill myself!" I yell at her with tears in my eyes.
"I hope he leaves you, then you will have no one" says my mum.
I close my eyes to let the tears flow out and jump when the door slams.

I can't help myself anymore, I depend on people and this is always how it will end. And one by one, I will lose the people I love the most.