Am I Just A Memory?

Chapter 25

Guys,
I really think this book is crappy /-\
But thank you for all the people who actually read, those are the true people!
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"Ian!" I yell through the hallways, but still no sight of him.
Ian why did you do this?!
"Ia-"
I see him but he's crouched down on the floor.
"Leave!" He yells, but sounds like he is crying.
Oh Ian.
"Ian get up please."
"Why? I'm just going to leave." He looks me dead in the eyes and one tear falls from his eye.
"Ian please don't do this. Do you want to go some where private, so me and you can just go talk?" I tell him and he nods.
He stands up and whispers, "where do we go then?"
"Anywhere you feel comfortable talking."
"Let's go to a park." He says and I nod to that.
"Do you know any parks around here?"
"Yes."
"Okay then?"
We drove of to the park, I don't know why I'm up this late talking to a person who nearly killed me four times.
In my pjs ready to 'talk'.

~•~At the Park~•~

We found a little bench to sit on, and there was a full moon out.
It looks and feels peaceful.
"Ian what's going on lately? You have so much built up in you. You need to let it out. So please tell me." I tell him staring into his blue eyes.
"It's just- I don't know what to do anymore. There is no meaning in life anymore."
"Ian. There is so much you can do in life, but you just think of the negative things."
"But Kate, I lost you, I lost my family, I have only four friends who all moved away from me. Do I really need to go on? My life is complete shit. There's no point in living." He tells me looking down at his fingers.
"Ian you make everything sound negative, think about it this way. Since you are 'supposedly' alone that means more opportunities! You don't have annoying people knocking you down."
"But I jus-"
"Ian, please." I whisper, I put my head on his shoulder and feel him put his head on top of mine.
"Ian what are we going to do." I whisper to him.
"I don't know. What are we going to do." He whispers back and I pick my head up from his shoulders.
I just stare at him, as he stares at me.
"Ia-"
Before I can finish I felt his lips on mine.
I didn't stop, I couldn't.
It was passionate, full of love and lust.
My hands slowly made there way to his checks.
Why can't I stop?
His hands made there way to my sides.
Thinking time: I'm making out with my ex, In a public park, AND I HAVE A BOYFRIEND.
Oh my god, what about Dan?
This feels so wrong!
But it feels so right.
I feel something, should I?!
We both pull away, foreheads touching and out of breath.
I look at Ian's lips and see them curl into a smile.
Ian's hands grab onto mine, and he interlocks our hands.
"Did you feel something to?" Ian pants/whispers to me.
"Is it good if I did or?"
"Kate I felt the sparks to."
"But I'm with Dan, Ian this isn't ri-"
"Can we forget Dan for a second?"
"But Ian-"
"Kate, you don't know how much stress that took off right now."
"Aw Ian-"
"Can we go back to my place very fast I need to do something."
"Um alright?"
I feel so guilty! How can I do this to Dan?
Ugh, I know he's going to leave me.
I'm so stupid!

~•~Back At The Apartment~•~

We walked in and things looked/seemed normal.
"So what did yeah need?" I ask and sit onto his couch.
"I want to try something." He says and sits down also.
"Well? You gunna say it or?"
He leans in and kisses me again.
Should I do it back or say no?
REMEMBER DAN!
I pull away slowly and whisper, "Ian but Da-"
"I told you forget about him for a second."