Words She Never Said

Breathe

In through the nose

Out through the mouth

It's what they tell us to do when things don't work out

I struggle to focus, I can barely breathe

My own life is killing me

It doesn't make sense

I'm on the fence

Everything's a mess

And again I have to clean it up

Sweep away the dust, pick up the mop

I don't think I have the strength

But I have to be strong

Prove everyone wrong

Prove myself wrong

My heart feels heavy

But the words I write help carry the burden

My mind is my den

To hide from everything, everyone and pretend

That maybe I won't have to break to mend

That maybe I can fight and defend

And things will turn out right

But nothing feels right tonight

I'm tired of fighting

I want to leave

I'm done believing

I want to stop breathing

I tired of faking

And making mistakes

I'm tired of bending till I break

But I can't stop

It's like I'm in hell

There's no one to save me no way to erase me

So I'll just keep writing

Until the last word

I'll do as they say

I'll breathe

Until the day I don't