Words She Never Said

Forever Unknown

I know none of you were interested in what I had to say
I continued writing anyway
I don't know why
This book never caught on
Anyway by tomorrow it will be gone
Then forgotten
Just like me

No one ever really cared for me
This pathetic mess
By tomorrow she will be put to rest
She's confessed all she's needed to confess
If she says anymore
It will mean nothing
Like her

But tomorrow she'll mean something
After all
When you're dead is when they come calling
And bawling
Like they actually cared
Everyone will have something to share
But it will mean nothing
Like she did to them
Like they did to her

You know these past six months have been a blur
Feels like hell
Nothing to look forward to
And no looking back
Just blackness
Sadness
But that dies today
No more crying my nights away
No more daydreams to stop me breaking
I don't need anyone to stay
Time has never stopped for my broken soul
The ocean feels so cold
There was never a flower
Just thornes
That happy girl I used to be
I know she won't remember me
Happiness was sadness on every page
I'll be free again
No more monsters or menaces
No more of these daydreams and pretences

I'm finding a resolution
Starting a revolution
Success and love are all I need
Maybe some adventures
I hope they don't kill me
This battle going on inside my head
It hit me everywhere I'm weak
By the end of the night that girl won't be breathing
Filled with broken hope
Stuck in life's chokehold
It's time to be bold
And kill this pathetic old
Me

She had control
Over my mind
She passed me so many cups
But I won't drink that shit up
No
Not anymore
Even though she was all I adored

Maybe I will be a magical lyricist
A mist of happiness
A shape-shifting Marilyn Monroe
Who knows?
Maybe one day my love will stay
In another life
Without strife

No more fires in my head
No more menace in my head
I'll have my own wings wrapped around me
No more burning in fires of humanity
Dancing down this road of troubles
I won't be the one who falls to rubble
I've gotta give it to her
She did keep breathing
But now she won't

Once upon a dream
She was all she seemed
But a lot can change in a few hours
Heros to cowards
Cowards to heros
Seeds to flowers

They said
When life gives you lemons make lemonade
When she asked for help they needed a hearing aid
Well now they're all too late

Pain was all she had
As things always got bad
After all
Yellow was never as easy as blue
But there was a time when she was just like you

She was never
In
With the crowd
She'll never be seen
But someone might
Someone who holds her light
Untouched, before it turned dark
It will be a work of art
They may be a tinman
Until their walls are broken
Maybe someone will kiss them like they love them, like they need them, like they want them
Maybe someone will feel like everything they dreamed is real
When they meet her

Her

She won't be seen when it's convenient
She won't take any shit
Because this
This isn't what she does anymore
Screw loneliness galore
Screw not having success
Forget being stuck in this mess
This rut

That girl will die tonight
No one will call her phone
She'll sink into the oblivion

Forever unknown.