In Time

Chapter 6

Connors P.O.V

I continue walking as Troye gets quiet because of what I've said. I take a glance at him to see his expression and he's kind of smiling while staring at the ground.
"What?" I say looking at him. He quickly looks at me, continues smiling and says
"Oh, it's just I've never seen another gay guy in this messed up city."
I stop and realise what he's trying to say to me, and look back at the darkening cold road ahead of me and say
"Wait, you're-" I stop and look at him and wait to hear his reaction.
"Uh, yeah. Yeah I am." He says putting his hands in my jacket he's wearing as we then walk in silence.
I stare in front of me walking towards my house in the distance thinking about him. I never thought I would be this happy about another man's sexuality. He does the same thinking and walking. Out of the corner of my eye I stare at his beauty. I never wanted to say or think that cause I didn't want to accept that that is what I thought of him, but now I can't even think otherwise.
He's gorgeous.
His smile, his eyes, his hair, his face, his laugh, and him.
I then snap out of my trance and see that Troye is staring back at me
"What?"
"Oh uh, you just have something on your...face!"
"Oh where? Can you get it?" He says stopping and rubbing his face.
"Um, ok."
For once I feel scared, scared to be that close to someone, scared to touch them. I have been scared before but not like this. Nothing like this. I slowly move forward and rub his cheek with my thumb putting my fingers around the groves in his neck as I feel my cheeks starting to get blushed with red. We look into each others eyes as I continue rubbing his cold reddened cheek, his eyes are a beautiful shade of blue like the ocean itself has gotten lost deep in this boys soul. I look deeper seeing the blue fading into a lighter blue but still keeping its beauty.

Troyes P.O.V

He holds my cheek getting whatever was on it but I don't care about that anymore. He gets close and we get lost in each other's stare, we are both the same height so it's easy to see straight at his face now flushing a deep red. My lip quivers as I try to shake out any type of sound but can't get myself too. He then licks and bites his bottom lip which makes me whimper but I quickly shut myself down, after a little bit he then says
"Uh, should we go? It's a little cold, out here." He takes his hand off my face and spins around to face the way we were walking.
"Oh, oh yeah...sure! Let's go." I say sounding awkward and getting a giggle from Connor in reply as I rub the same cheek he was just rubbing a second ago.

Five minutes later

We finally arrive at his house and it's already dark even though it's like 4:15 or something. I get in the house and shiver as Connor comes in after me closing the door and putting his keys on the table. I look around when I see a mirror behind me, I look at it and see my face is red and my eyes have lost their puffiness from crying before. Connor then comes up behind me taking off his jacket I'm wearing and puts it on a coat hanger beside the door. This then reveals my big red mark on my wrist with dried blood leaking from out of the plaster covering only half of it. Connor then turns back to me and immediately looks at my wrist.
"Oh my god! What ha-"
"My parents."
He looks horrified as tears start to slip out of my eyes again
"They cut out my connection so I can't give money, but I can still receive it."
"Why would they.." He says but shuts himself off with the horrid and terrible thing he's just witnessed. I then turn to face him and look at his shoes. He then hugs me embracing me with full strength in his body but not doing it tightly making sure I'm not too hurt. I finally hug back putting my arms around his waist as he keeps his around my neck. We hug and hug and I don't want to let go, it feels nice and it's starting to take me back to that day when I met Ben, but this time.
Ben wasn't the one I had fallen for.

Connors P.O.V

We end our hug and I lead him to the lounge, I tell him to get comfortable as I go to order pizza. It kind of gets awkward since he is just a boy I met in the park a few days ago, if I ever told anyone this story, they would probably just laugh in my face. The pizza gets delivered and we set it on the coffee table as the tv plays Guardians of the Galaxy and as me and him are sorted on the couch cross legged facing each other laughing and eating. I've seen him laugh before but not like this, when he genuinely laughs his face gets all wrinkly, his eyes water and his smile just grows. As we talk he just randomly brings up my book again
"So, your diary must have a lot of your secrets huh?"
"Well, probably. It's not a diary, it's a poem notebook kind of thing."
He laughs at my dorkiness and goes
"If I find it I can read it." With that he jumps up and runs around the house as I follow behind trying to grab him. He's a very skinny boy so he can easily move around the place into tight sharp corners fast as I have to stop, jump, duck and run again. He then goes upstairs when I just manage to grab his shirt and stop him and then he comes back tumbling into me as I swing my arms around him then flop on the floor back first laughing so hard. In between laughs I just speak out
"Man I love you Troye!"
"What?"

God I hate this but I love it at the same time
Sorry if some parts are crap I'm tired ok?
Ok love you
Night