Bittersweet

I can't help that I need it all

The smile from last night was still on my face when I left my apartment the next day.

As I expected, Mikey asked a lot of questions and kept me awake until late at night but I was glad to spend time with my brother so I answered every question.
When I was done telling Mikey about my evening, I wasn't the only one smiling like an idiot

"I'm really glad to see you like this", he said after a while of silent grinning, "I hope he'll treat you right"

"Of course he will! He's like... the sweetest person on earth!", I almost squealed and made Mikey laugh in the progress

"It sounds like my big brother is... in love", Mikey said teasingly and wiggled his eyebrows.

I frowned "well... I wouldn't say that just now. I really really like him. And maybe it could actually become something... serious"

"It doesn't matter right now. You two would make a cute couple. But if he breaks your heart I'm going to rip off his head. Just saying"

I couldn't help but laugh at that.

The thought of Mikey, my way too skinny brother fighting somebody way bigger than himself just seemed too funny.

After that conversation I went to sleep right away, but that didn't change anything about how I looked like a zombie the next day.

That brings us to the present.

I was walking down the stairs,careful so I wouldn't fall
It was hard to keep my eyes open to be honest.

It was actually a miracle that I made it to work safe.
And it was even more suprising that I didn't just pass out, when Bert came up to me as soon as I stepped into the tall glass building and greeted me with a sweet kiss.

I was suprised. Really.
I thought that Bert and I were more on a... private relationship level.

I mean... we only had one date
But even though I said that I wanted to take things slow, I kissed back only a few moments later

"Would it be weird if I told you that I missed you?", Bert asked, still standing really close to me.

"N-No", I stuttered and felt myself blush again

Damn... get your shit together Gerard

Bert pecked my lips once again before he stepped back

I saw his eyes moving up and down my body and I was close to turning around to stop him from staring at me when he said
"You look really pretty today"

I snorted
"Are you kidding me? I slept like... 3 hours. I look like a zombie"

"If all zombies look like you, then I am already excited for the apocalypse", he grinned

I was taken aback
How could he compliment me in this state?
"T-Thank you", I stuttered, eyes wide in disbelief

"It's just the truth", Bert answered and my face turned even redder

I looked at the ground, not wanting Bert to see my embarrassment, when I felt two strong hands grabbing my hips.

"You know", Bert whispered and leaned down to my ear, "I hope you don't mind me saying this but if we weren't standing in the middle of a big company foyer with glass walls I'd really like to fuck you right now"

My head snapped up. Did... did he really just say that.

The smirk on his face told me that yes... he actually said that.

I opened my mouth to say something, but no words wanted to come out so I just stood in front of him and probably looked like a fish with my mouth opening and closing every second.

"McCracken! Mrs. Enders wants to see you", one of the secretaries shouted over the noise of phones ringing and I didn't know if I was sad or actually relieved as Bert removed his hands from my hips

He rolled his eyes
"I'm coming", he shouted back but the young woman who asked for him didn't even listen anymore

"I'm sorry I have to go. I'll text you after work", Bert said to me before he turned away and ran to the elevators not even waiting for an answer

And for the first time in my entire life I was actually completely speechless.

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"He said WHAT?", Ray practically screamed when I told him about the date with Bert yesterday and the encounter this morning

"Can you be more quiet please. I don't want Pete to hear that. You know that he can't keep anything to himself", I hissed whilst Ray made a Coffe for me.

"I'm sorry but... whoa I wasn't expecting this. I thought you and Frank were... a thing", Ray whispered back. I could hardly hear him over the sound of the Coffe machine.

"I told you Frank and I won't work out. That's all just in Pete's fantasy", I rolled my eyes and sat down at the table close to the counter.
Just close enough so Ray could still here me
"Talking about him. Where even is Pete?"

"Oh he's currently in the storage room with our new trainee", Ray answered, "started this morning. His name is Patrick. Pretty small. A ginger. And really nice. I think this one will work out"

"Patrick? Nice name. But do you really think it's... smart to leave him alone with Pete?", I smirked as Ray took the chair on the other side of the table and set the cup of hot Coffe in front of me.

"Well... I don't really have the nerves to explain everything. And Pete volunteered which was probably a bad thing if I think about it now but what's the worst that could happen?"

I was just about to give my friend a list of all the horrible things that could happen when we heard the jiggling bells and steps entering the café

"Can you make me a Latte, Ray", Frank asked as he practically jumped on the chair next to mine.

"Of course Frank", Ray sighed in annoyance but smiled soon after he stood up and went behind the counter.

"So, princess... you went to second Base with your boy toy?", Frank asked and leaned over so he was sitting a bit to close for my liking

"That's totally none of your buisness. Why do you even care?", I said, taking a sip from the brown Coffe mug in front of me

"As I told you so many times before. I want fun and seeing you fail in a relationship is the most fun I could have"

"Fail? Seems like my date wasn't a fail after all. He wouldn't have kissed me then", I said, not letting Frank put me down

I heard Frank growly quietly but decided not to say something about it.

Suddenly I felt a hand on my thigh slowly stroking up and down in a slightly circular motion.

I froze
This reminds me of horrible things. Things I totally don't want to remember.
But I just couldn't bring myself to force his hand away

"What do you even want from that guy. He looks like a horse", Frank giggled

I just rolled my eyes
"He's nice to me. That's all that matters"

For a short moment Frank actually kept quiet but then I felt his grip on my thigh tighten and I couldn't help but gasp at the sudden sensation.

When Frank leaned over more than before I actually thought I had forgotten how to breath.

I felt his breath on my ear and tried to ignore the goosebumps I suddenly got all over my arms and legs

"He might be nice", Frank whispered and i felt his lips brush against the skin on my neck, "but only I know how to push your buttons"

And with a last kiss on my neck Frank actually managed to make me wax in his tattooed hands.