Jazs's Journal

July 10th, 2016

I spend atleast 10 hours of my day working on my music , writing , coming up with beats , figuring out financial plans... I spend 5 hours of my day sleep and dreaming of nothing but plain black abyss or plain white territory's or I dream about things that make no sense to me. I spend 2 hours eating . Stuffing my face and regretting it later. I spend exactly 1 hour reading , 1 hour crying and about an hour looking at myself naked in the mirror.. The other 5 hours are spent on social a media ranting , educating , loving aesthetics or saying "same af " on post..
I have yet to have time for myself. When I try to escape and relax I get "omg where are you " or "come back I need to talk" .. And I'd be selfish not to
I need .. Time to relax , when I sleep I sleep with no comfort. 24hours of the day and yet I have no time to step out of my mind and just ..chill
Erykah badu says she stays out of her mind to keep from disturbing her peace . I'm just trying to Astral project to another dimension or live on Mars . That sound rewarding but back to reality ..