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1:11pm
Today , I didn't wake up my best or even my worst. I woke up and I felt sick in the stomach ..I thought maybe it was because I needed to eat or maybe I needed to drink some water.. That didn't help. I took a shower and washed my hair and I realize that the feeling in my pit was because I was worried about something .
Though I didn't know what my conscious knew and throughout my shower I also realize that I was worried about a lot of things and then on top of that I started worrying that I might have my anxiety attacks again. I took a deep breath and when I got out I got dress , did all that feminine stuff and took this picture. I'm okay now but I think I just needed to relax .
Being someone with high anxiety even when I don't want to its possible for me to wake up with a bloody nose or even just feeling sick.
I've come to discover that I wasn't controlling my anxiety , I was suppressing it . That's not the same nor will it have the same effect. Acting like it's not there doesn't change that it's there .

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