Mez Pov
I can't help but realize that it's all my fault.
If I had never went to that concert, none of this would've happened
I say trying to reassure myself but it's not working
It's not like I had a choice though, I didn't just ask to be raped nor for Chris to come over to me
What was he even doing on the streets alone after the concert? Shouldn't he have been with Jake and Etho?
Did all of this happen for a reason?
A million thoughts are buzzing into my head by the second and I can't help but cry because that's all I could physically do at that moment, I couldn't move, I couldn't speak, I was barely even breathing
I dont know what I'm more upset about, the fact that I was practically raped the other night or that I slept with Christopher Lanzon
The fact that he still slept with me from what I had just been through
I told him everything that happened that night and he still chose to do that
I know every lanzonator would think differently about this, but to me it just felt wrong
He doesn't even know me
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I can't help but think about what had happened to me last time I went out
I still have the scares to prove it
I just don't understand why this keeps happening to me
Why do they all want to torture me so much
"Mez. You're such failure, FaiLuRe FAILURE!!!!"
That's all that's running through my head as tears stream down my face
– Soz it's short and really boring lol
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