Chris Pov
Several days have past and Mez seems to be getting better, her memory is slowly restoring back to normal and she's starting remember who I am which is good
I just don't know if she's mentally
And emotionally okay
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We've been talking for a while now and the nurses have offered me a bed in Mez' room so that I can keep an eye on her and help her get better, so I feel like its time to bring it up. So. I. Do
"Hey Mez, Can I ask you something?"
"Yeh sure, go ahead" she tells me
"Why didn't you just tell me that you weren't okay?" I ask
She pauses, looking down at her hands
"I-I j-just didn't want you to leave me, just like how everyone else did" she tells me
"What are you talking about?"
She takes in a deep breath and begins to speak
"All throughout my life I've been nothing but a disappointment to everyone" she starts off
"Every time I try to tell someone that I'm mentally unwell, they'd end up leaving, I just didn't want you to do the same as they did" she chokes out a small sob, letting a tear roll down her soft yet puffy face
I quickly wipe it away and bringing her head up, looking deeply into her beautiful eyes
"Mez, you know that I'd NEVER do that to you, I care about you ALOT, I'd be willing to ANYTHING for you" I reassure her
"Well you know, that's what my ex said to me as well but once I told him, he left like there's no tomorrow"
"I'm sorry to hear that but Mez CMON you know me, I wouldn't do that to you" I tell her
"Do you trust me?" I ask
"Yeh..."
"Then you know that I wouldn't do that, I love you Mez. And when you're ready to tell me why you're sitting In this hospital bed and everything that you're going through, I'll be right here, okay?"
Her head slightly nods, bringing her focus back to her fiddling with the bed sheets
I honestly don't know what's up with her, she keeps trying to shut me out, but I can't let her do that
She means the world to me 🌏❤️
These past few months have been one huge roller coaster, but I'm glad it's with Mez
I just want her to be okay
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There's an awkward silence for about 2 minutes until she quietly speaks up
"I fell pregnant when I was 13" she blurts out, trying to swallow the lump in her throat
I bring her into a comforting hug while running my hand Down her back as she lets out small cries
After a few minutes of crying , we both pull away so I decide to speak up
"Who was the father?? I whisper
"M-My uncle James" she stuttered "the guy who raped me" she wipes away the tears from her eyes
"He said if anything ever happened to the baby, he'd come back after me and get his revenge" her hands are shaking
"Where is he now?" I ask
"He's been given life in prison in America, thousands of miles away" she replied
"And the baby?" I piped up
"I gave her up for adoption just after I had her, I'm surprised that she didn't kill me, although I wish she did" she replied whilst looking down and fidgeting with her hands
"Hey, don't say that okay, it's not your fault Mez, none of this is your fault" I try to reassure her but fail
"CHRIS YOU DONT EVEN FUCKING KNOW ME" she yells
"But I do know you Mez" I try to comfort her
"NO CHRIS, YOU DONT. AND IF YOU KNEW ME, YOU WOULD KNOW ALL THE HELL I'VE BEEN THROUGH FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS AND BY NOW YOU WOULD'VE ALREADY LEFT OKAY I'VE ALWAYS JUST BEEN ANOTHER FAN IN THE CROWD , THATS ALL" she shouts
"Mez calm down okay, you can tell me whenever you're ready, don't be scared that I'm gonna leave because it's different this time okay, I'm not going anywhere. you're much more than just another fan, why do you think we are where we are now?"
"Save it Chris, I've heard it all before, just do us both a favor and leave" she quiets down
"Mez I'm not leaving you" I tell the long brown haired girl
"JUST GO" she shouts bluntly
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I get up from my chair and begin to walk out the door
My heart is broken knowing that she wants me to leave
It's not her
That's not the Mez that I've known
Why is it suddenly all so different?
Maybe if I just give her some space, then she'll come through
I walk out the door and closing it behind me, looking though the blinds to see what Mez is doing after I close the door
She's balling her eyes out, her cries are getting louder and louder by the second
I can see that she's holding her chest and breathing in deeply becoming more louder each time she takes a breathe in
Then it hit me
HER ANXIETY
SHIT.
SHE NEEDS HELP
I quickly run and get the nurse to tell her what's going on with Mez
She quickly follows me to her room,
The nurse rushes into the Mez'
Leaving. Me. Alone. Outside.
A/N
957 words later and here we are!
I honestly don't even know where I'm going with this story anymore, it's soo boring lmao 😴
Anyways I just wanted to Ethank you all soo much for 800+ reads, it honestly means the world knowing that people read this book
Ilyssm xx
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