All In Your Head // C.L

Chapter 14

Mez Pov

I'm curled up into a little ball on the floor with tears running down on my face and blood streaming throughout my body

Chris keeps messaging me asking if I'm okay, but I can't lie to him
So I just don't reply
He's getting worried

I just don't care anymore
I'm a failure to everyone
I'm not good enough for anyone

I don't even understand why he's worried it's not like he cares about me
He doesn't even know me for fuck sakes

I try to help myself up onto the bed but only then did I realize that the pain was getting worse

I grab out a handcloth from my bedside table and press it onto the scars that I left on my hip

I try to swallow the lump in my throat but it's stuck half way
I quickly walk into my ensuite and find my bottle of painkiller tablets
I take 2 and only then did I feel a bit dizzy and woozy
I walk back to my room and tried to clear the blood away from my hip but it's not stopping

My phone buzzes right beside me and saw that is was yet another message from Chris

From Chris:
Mez you need to answer me Hun I'm really worried

I look at the message in pain,

He then calls me
But I don't answer

I don't want him to see me like this

I turn my phone off and chuck it across the other side of the room

My breathing is getting heavier and heavier by the second and I can't help but cry

I stand up and look into the body mirror that's in my room

"URG YOURE SUCH A FUCKING FAILURE AND A DISAPPOINTMENT TO THIS FAMILY"
I scream and yell and cry till it's all out of me

My body starts to feel droopy and dizzy and I felt like I was falling into a deep sleep

I try walking to my bed but I trip over a pile of dirty clothes

I'm on the floor in pain and I can't get up

I scream out to my parents but they can't hear me

Suddenly, everything turned black

– sorry guys x that kinda hit me in the feelios to shit
update, enjoyyy xxx