DETECTIVE FILES. File 2 (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 46: STX2

Chapter 46: STX2

Naiwan kami ni Gray sa sala ng mansion nang umalis si Ryu upang magpahanda ng matutulugan ko. I'm glad that he brought me here at the Vander's rather than the Morisson's dahil tiyak na mag-aalala lamang sina Mommy.

"Amber...", tawag ni Gray sa pangalan ko. Napatingin ako sa kanya, like the other Vander's, his mood is not at its best.

"Hmm?"

"I'm sorry", he said. He is very sincere with his words at damang-dama ko iyon. I know it's not just because of the placidity of the dawn that makes his words sincere but it is his words itself. I refused to look at him in his eyes, it would only make me go insane and I don't want that to happen.

"O-okay lang", wika ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit malakas ang pintig ng puso ko. Gusto ko siyang yakapin at sabihin sa kanya lahat ng hinanakit ko sa buhay na hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin halos mapaniwalaan na nangyayari. I want him to give me an assuring hug and whisper into my ears that everything will be alright. Na lahat ng ito ay malalagpasan namin. Na hindi bahagi ng Genesis si Dad. Na hindi ako si Ryle. I want him to tell me that I am not a Vander and we are not cousins. Na panaginip lamang ang lahat ng ito but I know he can't.

No matter how we see it, everything that I wish him to tell me cannot be spoken. He cannot give me an assurance that everything will be alright. That my Dad isn't a part of the Genesis. That I am not a Vander. Hindi pwede. I felt the familiar painful sensation that occurs to me kapag naaalala ko ang kalagayang kinasasadlakan ko ngayon.

"It's not fine", wika niya. I cannot argue with him tonight. I'm dead tired and my foot hurts so bad so I turned my back on him.

"It is. Good night Gray", I said and walked away but before I can even take a step, he pulled me and hugged me from behind. He rested his face on my neck and encircled his arms around me. It was one of his ways that makes me melt and by doing that, mas lalo lamang niyang pinapahirapan ang kalooban ko.

I felt a tear dropped from my eye when I felt his hug became tighter. He started whispering against my hair the words that I've been dying to hear.

"Everything will be fine, hindi man sa ngayon but I know it will. It's sad to be in this situation but I know it will be alright", he said and I can feel his warm breath on my neck.

I smiled bitterly. I hope it would be like that. Hearing him say those words brings pain. It's not much of pain to kill me, yet not so little to let me live.

Tinanggal ko ang kamay niya na nakayakap sa akin. I didn't even bother to look at him. Makikita lamang niya ang pag-iyak ko but he didn't let go. Bagkus ay mas lalo lamang niyang hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap at mas isinubsob pa niya ang mukha sa leeg ko. It pains me. It really pains me so much every time I remember that there are certain people who are not meant to fit in our life, no matter how much we want them to be.

Like how I want Gray to fit in my life. I don't want him as cousin! I want him to be more...

"Gray... please don't make it hard for me....", nagsusumamo ang boses ko. Muli kong tinanggal ang nakayakap niyang kamay mula sa akin. "I'm going now."

"Do you think it's easier to walk away than to fight for what you really want?", wika niya. I stopped on my tracks ngunit nanatili pa ring nakatalikod sa kanya. "Listen Amber, I will prove to you and everyone that you are not a Vander."

"I wouldn't know that you will go that far. Iisa pa rin ang sagot na makukuha mo Gray. I'm Ryu's sister and we're cousins."

"I will risk going too far to possibly find out how far I can go. I know I can go as far as discovering that you are not a Vander", buo ang boses niyang wika. I wonder how he will do it. Ayaw kong umasa. "Don't you see? You look like Amethyst and not Sweet."