I was once human (sterek)

Chapter 10 ( part 1)

A/n hey guys so I know this might not make sense now but when you get to the lyrics of the song (it'll be in this writing - italics) please read them because they have meaning to the rest of the chapter - thx.

Stiles POV

As I arrived home I decided to take ( yep you guessed it) another shower. As I said they always relax me and I love to be able to just be in my own mind for half an hour with no cares in the world.

I stripped of my clothes and turned the water on hot. I stuck my hand under the stream of hot water to make sure it was warm enough then stepped under the follow of water.

It was perfect. well to me it was.

I started to hum to some random song that was in my head as I poured the shampoo into my hand then rubbed it into my scalp, making sure to get all of my hair. I loved my hair but it was getting a bit too long for my liking- it wasn't long but too long for me. My hair was long enough to brush back but I liked to spike my hair.

My humming slowly turned into singing which I did frequently while in the shower.

2 songs came to mind which I loved. They were them songs where the lyrics have meaning if you know what I mean.
The songs are called unsteady and happy little pill.

I heard something that sounded like a small bang from my room but I could've just been imagining it so I started to sing from beginning to the end of each song.
Starting with happy little pill then unsteady

In the crowd alone
And every second passing reminds me I'm not home
Bright lights and city sounds are ringing like a drone
Unknown, unknown

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts
Buying happy from shopping carts
Nothing but time to kill
Sipping life from bottles
Tight skin, bodyguards
Gucci down the boulevard
Cocaine, dollar bills
And...

My happy little pill
Take me away
Dry my eyes
Bring colour to my skies
My sweet little pill
Tame my hunger
Light within
Numb my skin

Like a rock I float
Sweat and conversations seep into my bones
Four walls are not enough
I'll take a dip into the unknown, unknown

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts
Buying happy from shopping carts
Nothing but time to kill
Sipping life from bottles
Tight skin, bodyguards
Gucci down the boulevard
Cocaine, dollar bills
And...

My happy little pill
Take me away
Dry my eyes
Bring colour to my skies
My sweet little pill
Tame my hunger
Light within
Numb my skin

Glazed eyes, empty hearts
Buying happy from shopping carts
Nothing but time to kill
Sipping life from bottles
Tight skin, bodyguards
Gucci down the boulevard
Cocaine, dollar bills
And...

My happy little pill
Take me away
Dry my eyes
Bring colour to my skies
My sweet little pill
Tame my hunger
Light within
Numb my skin

-------------- unsteady---------------

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady
Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Momma
Come here
Approach
Appear
Daddy
I'm alone
'Cause this house don't feel like home

If you love me
Don't let go
If you love me
Don't let go

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady
Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Mother
I know
That you're tired of being alone
Dad I know you're trying
To fight when you feel like flying

If you love me
Don't let go
If you love me
Don't let go

Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady
Hold
Hold on
Hold on to me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady

I was absolutely blaring my heart out at the end of the songs and I was so glad my dad was at work because I really didn't want him hearing my singing. I started to go into deep thought about how different I look now but I know on the inside I'm the same scared, shy kid I was last year.

The difference between me now and me then is that while I was singing that song I was being loud and confident where as last year I would have been singing shyly even when I was on my own in the house.

I slowly sank to the bottom of the shower so I was sat on the floor and just staring at the wall- this my friends is called an existential crisis. The thoughts running through my mind that life was completely pointless and I was just down spiralling.

Then I realised that I was still depressed and I was still unhappy with life. I was on the verge of tears but I haven't cried since I left beacon hills last year and I don't plan on changing that now.

I stood up in the shower, turned it off, wrapped a towel around my waist then walked out the room
into my bedroom only to be met with beautiful green eyes.

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