Time (Newt X Reader Book 6)

- Voices -

I felt nothing. I looked at my nonexistent arm and Newt and the window and the world outside and I felt nothing. I growled and slumped back down in bed staring at the tall white ceiling. Two versions of me were fighting in my head.

This isn't you. Get out of bed and do something.
What can you do? You are nothing now. You're useless and have one arm.
You don't rely on anyone. You are stronger than this.
No you're not. You're going to die here.
No! Get out of bed. Smile...
You have nothing to smile about. Even Newt is getting fed up with you.
Newt loves you. He will always love you. Please get up.

I looked at Newt who saw I was awake and walked over to me.
"Morning...should I say afternoon " he chuckled. I looked to the clock on the table.
1:30pm
"Why did you let me sleep that long?!"
"You're cute when you sleep." He replied nuzzling his face into my neck kissing it gently.

See he loves you.
No he's just being nice. He pitys you!

I growled at the voices in my head begging them to shut up. Newts lips grazed against my neck I shivered and each time he smiled. He ran his hand along the skin that was visible at the bottom of my shirt. I sighed.
He gently pulled my face to his and I let him kiss me deeply, I kiss him back wanting more. He smiles as we kiss and he runs his fingers through my hair.
I get a splitting headache all of a sudden and grip Newts arm tightly. He doesn't flinch but I know it's hurting him.
"It's OK...I'm here" he whispers holding me closer to him.
I hate this. I thought to myself. I yearned for the positive voice to come back and for the negative one to shuck off.

-MINHO POV-

"Minho, what do you want us to do? There are a a few of us left we can't overthrow wicked by ourselves. And in case you hadn't noticed our best soldier has an arm problem and refuses to leave her room!" Atticus shouted pacing. I could tell the whole greenie thing was hurting him. He had been to see her a few times and everytime he came back angry or crying.
"Hey! Can't wicked give her a new arm?! They have the technology right?" I said as the idea popped into my head.
"You think she'd accept that?"
"Maybe! It might make her feel less useless."
"Yeah and It would also make her like them more." Atticus' positive look changed.
"No!" I said "Greenie wouldn't like them if they gave her all the money in the world"
I knew it was true. When she holds a grudge....she holds a grudge. She'd never forgive them for what they have done no matter what they do.  But maybe a new arm would help her move...
"If you think it'll work...."
"I know it will. I know her. Once she's up and about then we'll burn this place down!" I growled slamming my fists against the wall...i regretted it.
"Alrighy" Atticus stood "I'll ask to speak to Ava. I'll let you do the talking"

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Hope you enjoyed it.

I'm sorry it's taken so long....
A lot of shit has been going on with me lately my mental state is totally fucked. If anyone has any advice id gladly listen...

Also to all my American readers I am truly sorry for the outcome of the election. I hope Trump doesnt ruin your amazing country. ❤
I love you guys so much
Love abbie ❤❤