****play the song on the side while you read****
Kaiya's POV~~
2am; where do I begin. I’ve been sitting in the darkness and solitude of my room thinking about what I could do to fix all of this. I cry off my face again as I realize, Niall will never want me back will he? The silent sound of loneliness is slowly creeping up on me and I don’t know what to do. I can take being alone, with absolutely no one? No I can’t do it. The last time I was alone…bad things happened. I have the scars to prove it.
USELESS
The word I carved into my fore arm. It’s there to remind me that I am truly useless and I guess Niall thought so too. The fear and pain wants to follow me to bed. It wants to lay in Niall’s place, the place that was left empty.
I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most. I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well. I am no longer the girl that was happy, but when I think about it, was I ever really that girl? Well was I? I don’t know. Niall made me feel like that girl, but he’s gone and left me. I now I deserved it though. Good things don’t stay for long for girls like…well…like me.
I’m dancing slowly in an empty room, to a song that reminds me of you. Can the lonely take the place of you? Can it? I want to know, will I be able to get over this. Will good things happen? I sing myself a quiet lullaby trying to fall asleep in a bed the we once shared. I have to let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again. To fill the spaces in my soul that was once filled with your love.
I’m too afraid to go inside for the pain of one more loveless night, for the reality that you’re actually gone will hit me oh so forcefully. The loneliness will stay with me and hold me until I fall am ok again. But I don’t think that could ever happen.
I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most. I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well. I don’t even recognize my reflection anymore. My cheeks are permanently stained with tears, my skin is cut up and my body is week. What happened? Oh yeah, Niall left me.
Dancing slowly in an empty room, can the lonely take the place of you? Can it warm my heart like you did or make me smile like you did? Probably not… I sing myself a quiet lullaby. The one you would sing to me when I had my night terrors. The song that filled my heart with pure happiness, but I have to let all of that go and let the lonely in… to take my heart again.
Broken pieces of a barely breathing story where there once was love, now there's only me and the lonely.
Dancing slowly in an empty room...
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby...
Let you go and let the lonely in...
To take my heart again...
I look at Niall’s cold body once more as I walk slowly back down the long chapel isle. I keep my head up high, trying not to let everyone figure out how broken I really am; but truth is…I can’t do this…
I stop at the large oak doors and turn once more to see my love lying dead in his eternal grave.
“Why did you leave me Ni?” I whispered as I ran from the chapel.
I can’t do this…
After running I find myself in the last place I wanted to be, the field where Niall and I had our first date. Fresh tears ran down my face. I sat down in the grass alongside the daisies as my tears watered the soil. I slipped my keys from my pocket and started carving my skin once again.
N…
“I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.” I sang loudly as I created the first letter.
I…
“Dancing slowly in an empty room,
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby.
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.” I sing, slightly shakier for the pain is starting to kick in.
A…
“Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me and the lonely.”
L…
“Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again…”
L…
Silence...
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NOTES::
Wow that was really sad. I hope I don't make anyone to deppressd while they read my one shots, but a lot of people ask for sad ones, and I mean A LOT! So ya sorry about all of the tears and such.
This Song Shot was written for Kaiya (You're Cutestagram) I hope you liked it!! I am sooo sorry about the wait, I accidentally skipped over your name in my list, I'm so sorry. I hope you enjoyed this story.
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