I Could Be Nothing But a Memory to You

Chapter 9

I was staring at the door of the judge's chamber waiting patiently for my father. After what seemed like hours and hours of waiting my father walked out. I looked up hopefully at him but his face held no emotion whatsoever. I was so mad I couldn't figure out if it was good or bad. I jumped up when he was close and he patted me on the back. "The charges were dropped, congrats, you're a free woman. Now stay out of trouble." he said before turning to walk away. "Wait." I said grabbing his hand. "What?" he asked me before pulling his hand away. "I just wanted to say thank you and, and, never mind." I said sadly. I hoped he would push and want to know what I had to say but he just nodded and then walked away.

I watched his retreating back and scrunched up my fists in frustration. My nails dug into my palms and I took deep breaths trying to calm down. I knew that I should be happy, I had somehow convinced Hannah to drop the charges or my dad convinced the judge to drop them. But I couldn't help but be mad. My dad was acting like I wasn't even his kid and I felt like he wasn't even my father. The guy I used to know was never like this, yeah, he had issues with working too much but he would never deny me. He said he would always love me but obviously that wasn't true. Things had changed and it hurt a lot. I missed my father and I wanted him back in my life and I feared things were too damaged to fix. Once I was as calm as I was going to get I walked out of the court house and into my car quickly. I leaned my head against the steering wheel and took deep breaths. I realized I had nowhere to go a couple seconds later. Crap I thought to myself, what was I going to do?

*Alex's POV*

I had my backpack packed and I was waiting for Matt to come off the bus. It was really early in the morning and everyone else was still asleep. After waking him up I had told him my plan of going to see Leah. We had two days off so I was going to take a plane to Florida and go see her. I couldn't wait to see her anymore and I was hoping this surprise would be exactly what she wanted. I was kind of worried about what the guys' reactions would be, I hadn't told them in fear of them stopping me or even worse, wanting to tag along. This was something I wanted to do on my own. A couple seconds later Matt walked off the bus still looking exhausted. "I can't believe you're doing this. The taxi should be here any second." he said, rubbing his eyes. "Thanks Matt, this means a lot to me." I told him giving him a giant hug.

"Yeah, yeah Alex, I know, just never wake me up again." he said before he yawned largely. The taxi pulled up and Matt clapped me on the back. "Be safe dude, remember you gotta be back in two days before seven. If you need me call me on any of the guys' phones, kay?" he asked. I nodded, I owed Matt a lot, not only had he helped me arrange this but he had lent me his cell phone so I would have a way to keep in contact with everyone while he was switching my number. "Thanks Matt, I'll be back before the show." I said before getting into the taxi and shutting the door behind me. "The airport please." I said before putting on my seatbelt. I stared out of the window as he drove. I thought of all the things I would say to Leah, all the things I wanted to do. I just wanted to tell her I loved her, wrap her up in my arms and just never let her go. When I got to the airport I paid the driver before getting out and running inside.

Getting through security was so much faster when you weren't with a giant group of guys. I went and sat in the terminal waiting for the flight. I looked up at the monitor and saw my flight was on time. Today was going good so far and I began to worry. What if something went wrong? I mean, my luck could only last for so long. I instantly tried to stop thinking, not wanting to think bad. I needed to be positive but all the bad things started running through my mind and I began jiggling my leg nervously. I just kept saying think positive over and over to myself in my head but the bad things just kept coming. I felt like I was about to be sick when they said my flight was boarding. I stood up and started walking towards the lady who was taking the tickets. Once I got up there I handed it to her and she looked at it before letting me board.