Hopes (MANXMAN)

chapitre 13

Before you read this chapitre you have to know that it's my first time writing a sex part like this . I have to say that reading it myself made me unconfortable .... i find it quite cringy -.- i hope that you will find it at least okay. Tell me you opinion in the comment ...

Aiden pov :

"I'm a fucking stranger right , so let me act like a fucking one " he yelled while pining me on the bed with my arms above my head .

"What are you doing ?" I yelled at him trying to get away from his grip .

"Do you think that all of this doesn't fucking affect me ?" He yelled opening my belt. I grabed his hands as hard as i could making him look at me .

"What are you afraid of ? Your father wouldn't care . Isn't it all that matters to you ?." i shouted not knowing what else to do , if i tell him what i really think at this moment he would probably kill me ... and i don't think that i want to die ... not anymore .

"I don't fucking care about my father or my friends . I don't want this ." He kept yelling " i'm not a fucking faggot .". I kept looking at him with wide eyes . Why is he soo selfish ?. I tryed to push him away from me . Yet he didn't stop , he tried to take off my shirt . I tried to get up but he pushed me back as hard as he can making me hiss in pain .

"S-stop it klaus " i yelled
"You're not a faggot so stop acting like one " ... He didn't say anything . He just puted his head on my shoulder... i though that he calmed down . But when i felt something wet travel up and down my neck i became even more scared . I tried to get up but i couldn't , he was way much stronger than me .

"Why are trying to escape ?" He asked while grabbing my chin making me look at him ." Its only sex ".

"That's the problem you idiot " i yelled " i don't want to have sex with you ".

"I didn't ask for your consent , i do whatever the fuck i want . Its not like you're a fucking virgin " . Hearing that made me look at him with wide eyes , he looked at me for couple secondes then started to laugh .

"You're a fucking virgin " he said while laughing hesterically . I took that as a chance to escape i pushed him as hard as i could . He fall on his back . I got out of the bed and ran as fast as i could to the door . I opened the door and ran it the hallway like a crazy person . I'm going away from here . Away from this heartless person . Suddenly , i hit something hard that made me fall on the floor . I hissed in pain , i looked up to see what it was . It was... Marke ? ... i'm sure that i was smiling at that moment . I got up and walked towred him as fast as i could .... i knew that he will come for me .

"H-he is c-comming , Marke please l-let's go away from h-here " i managed to say while taking his hand . Yet he didn't move , all he did was squeez my hand making me look at him with questionning eyes . Then i heared foot steps comming our way . That made me even more scared . I tryed to run but he kept pulling me back beside him . I can feel the tears going down my cheeks and my arms shaking . The sound of footsteps maked me loose the little bit of controle that i had .

"Marke p-please , l-let's g-go" i managed to say while trying to push him ."Marke , l-let's g-go away f-from h-here ". I began to sobs yet he didn't make any rection . The sound of foot steps was driving me insane .

"H-he want m-me to d-do it w-with h-him " i yelled " Marke please help me , h-help me i beg y-you ". He didn't say anything he didn't even looked at me . I didn't know what to do. Right now i don't see the reason for fighting , for talking or for brearhing ... i'm just done . But wait ... what was i even fighting for ? .

When the sound stopped i knew it was the end ... i took a step away from him and looked at him in the eyes . He let go of my hand . Why does he have to do this to me ? Why him ?. He is the only one left for me yet he chooses to do this ?. What is he doing here ? Why did he come ? Why Marke ? Why does it have to be you ?.

"I'm just here for the meeting . Sorry Aiden , you're his mate
If i try to save you my pack will be in danger " he said . I didn't say anything , i just kept looking at him until i felt someone grab my hand harshly . I didn't bother looking at the person who did it . I have been betrayed an other time ... by the only friend that i ever had . Yet i didn't feel anything ... this is the deffinition of being torn ? Or is it the deffinition of being broken way too many times . I'm scared of my own feeling , i felt empty . I kept looking at him as the person began to walk back to the room . I didn't feel like fighting anymore . Whatever i will do or i will say i will always end up like this . When i was pushed inside the room , i knew what was going to happen ... he was my mate yet i felt scared beside him . He was my mate yet i feared him . But i couldn't do enything to stop it . I watched him take off him shirt then his pants then walk tawred me . I felt him push me on the bed . I watched him take off my pants then he looked at me . What am i supposed to do now ? Do i beg him to stop ? Should i cry ? Maybe he'll feel sorry for me if i do so ... i saw him take something out of hid nightstand . I didn't bother myself to try to escape ... either did i try to stop him . I know that i'm going to regret this tomorrow but i don't care anymore . I will blame myself for what will happen now but even though i know that , i can't stop him ... it was impossible . I never imagined my first time to be this way . He was my mate yet i feel sick everytime he'll put his hands on me . How can he do this ?. Does he find it funny or what ?. Why is he doing this ? ... why ?

I felt him put his hands on my hips , he grabbed my underwear and made them slide down ... then he tryed to separate my legs . I kept them close as hard as i could but he serapeted them soo easily . I tryed to cover myself while he laughed at me . I saw him touch himself while using lube . Seeing that made me cring , at that moment i trayed to get up ... but pinned me on the bed as hard as he could on my chest . Then i felt something cold on my ass . At this point i was shaking violently ... i felt his hands on my hips ... i knew that it was going to happen when he did that . I felt like crying right now , i puted my hand over my mouth to stop me from sobbing , i didn't want to cry in front of him but in a situation like this i don't know right from wrong anymore ...

"I was going to go easy on you " he said with a husky voice " and try to make it less painful . But you always find a way to make me angry Aiden ." . I didn't say anything , i didn't dare do that .
"So don't blame me after this . If you knew how to treat your alpha this would have never happened " . As he said that i felt something enter me ... it teared me apart . A sharp pain traveled down my back as he continued to go in . I bite my arm to avoide screaming , but the pain was so intense that i bite too hard until my mouth was filled with blood . It... it hurts , it hurts soo much ... i feel like dying right now . I can't do this anymore . Then he made one thrust making me let go of my arm and scream in pain . I felt tears falling down my cheeks . It took only seconds for them to transform into sobbing . I screamed everytime he thrusted in me ... he did it with such a force that i felt like my back is going to brake ... is it supposed to hurt this way ?. I could hear him laugh with every thrust he made , that made me sick , he disgusted me . Then the thrust became faster making me scream in pain while grabbing the bedsheet in my hand . I felt something hot inside of me ... that made me cringe as the tears continued to fall down . I felt him take it out of me slowly ... i felt dirty ... i felt used ... i felt discusting . I wanted to die so bad ... the pain was too much to handle . I was afraid to move cause everytime i tryed to a sharp pain made me paralyzed . Suddenly i felt him put his hands on my hips , then he made me turn around . I was now on my back looking staight into his eyes . He had a smile on his lips ... how could he smile after doing this to me ? How could a person be so heartless ? .

"Tell me Aiden , what are you feeling right now ? Small ? Useless ? Worthless ?" he said while opening my legs one more time but this time i didn't fight back . "Come on Aiden answer me"

"I-i feel h-happy " i managed to say . "C-cause i know t-that after this i-i will finally b-be able t-to end it myself ."

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Hello there ! I hope you liked this chapitre !
And if you did don't forget to vote and comment .
Sorry for the "sex" part it's my first time writing something like that . I hope it's not too cringy .

Thanks for reading and i'll see you in rhe next chapitre