I'm 17... When Did That Happen!?

My Deep Stuff

Wow. I had no idea how much of a jerk that you are. My friends told me that you were, and I defended you. Now I know why I've been stressed out. It was cause of you. Now all I have to deal with is the crack in my heart. </3 all I need is for one guy to prove to me that they are not all the same. I thought that you were that guy, but apparently not. Now im gunna have an even harder time trusting people. Thanks, you suck. The only guy worth my tears is the one that wont make me cry. And not only did you make me cry, but you stressed me out tons. Thanks for about 4 months wasted, cause I would always be thinking of you. I really thought that we had something great going on this summer. But we came back to school and you started ignorin me. Thats when, deep down, I knew somethin was up, but i ignored that voice. And now im totally regretting that. Cause all you gave me was wasted months, and a broken heart. </3 I will never tell you this, but I did break down and cry. There is no point for me to like a jerk, [HIS NAME]

A/N That was written by me, shortly after homecoming my freshman year. The day of homecoming was when my heart was broken. It took me months after that to fully recover, and it didn't even happen every much till I learned why he had hurt me so. I have kept it to remind myself of the mistakes. I never really talked to him again, except for class and when I was with my friends that liked him....

This was not edited at all. It has been the same since I wrote it, so if there is grammar or spelling errors that's why. It's been a long time since I wrote this, and I had this in mind when I made this story. I don't think that I have shown many people this, as it's really personal. I've learned from my mistakes since, and that's all that really matters right? Yes, I didn't even try to make up a name for him, I still get gloomy when I read this or think about it. No, I havent tried ALL of the guys, I put that because that was a more popular thing back then. I have had two boyfriends, and this guy never really was my boyfriend, no matter what I wished. 

Eventually it was definitely more than 4 months that was wasted, and I don't want anyone else to go through that pain. If someone is hurting you, leave. Drop it. It's not worth your time or your life. Male or female, it doesn't matter. In high school dating and relationships are soooo over rated anyways. Your in HIGH SCHOOL, its not if you are going to get married! and if you do, congrats, cause that's impressive.