I'm 17... When Did That Happen!?

We Used To Be Best Buddies

We used to be best buddies

And now were not

But I know why.

I'm sorry

I shouldn't have said what I did

It was suposed to be a joke

Funny

Not heartbreaking.

Are you sorry?

Did you even realize that you over reacted?

That you are being over protective?

That you're ruining your own relationship?

Will you ever know?

The effect that you had

With those words?

They hurt

Deeply.

I cried.

In class

At home

Almost while driving home.

I know you did

But did I care at the moment?

No.

Do I still care now?

Only alittle.

What you said

Accused me of

Will never be forgotten

It will never not hurt.

I still get sad

I still hurt

I still can't comfortably talk to you.

I want my brother back.

I want the long talks

The hugs for hello and goodbye

The knowing that I can talk to you about anything

The knowing that you are here for me.

But will it ever happen?

I want my brother back

But like you said yourself-

Our friendship will never be the same.

Last time you talked to me

You didn't call me 'sis' like normal

You didn't try to keep the conversation going

And these not-done things

Almost hurt more than the words said.

I want to warn you

Your relationship is going down the drain

But I don't know how

To talk to you anymore.

You will just get mad

If I tried to tell you anyways.

Claiming things that aren't true

Saying more hurtful things.

I don't know how to talk to you anymore.

But all I want is my brother back.

We used to be best buddies

But now were not.

And I almost wish that I didn't know why.