Chronic Love | Lucaya

five · sick

sick

Lucas came to support group alone. It was really weird. He seemed really upset and I wasn't sure if I should bother him. I decided that I would talk to him because Kate had yet to come.

"Hey, Lucas.." I spoke and he did not answer. I thought about turning around, but I realized that this is Lucas. Someone who I actually like. "Lucas" I say in a rather stern voice hoping that he would look at me. I was about to say his name again when he whispered a stern but firm "Please leave me alone". I felt so bad. I just gave the space he wanted and I walked away and got to my chair as Kate walked in.

"Sorry I'm late.." Kate projects her voice to go around the entire room. "The traffic was ridiculous" She says as we started. One hour later she asked a question

"Where's Kaelynn?" She asked looking around the room before looking at Lucas. I didn't even bother to look at Lucas. "Lucas?" She wonders

"Kaelynn got a little sick and she has been admitted into the hospital" Lucas say sitting up into the chair.

Why didn't he tell me? I thought to myself.

"Oh. You can tell Kaelynn that we are praying for her. Maya?"

I look over at her and stood up, "Well, my lungs aren't getting any better. The only chance of me surviving is through a lung transplant. I'd love to live a normal life" I sigh sitting back down and fixing my oxygen tank

After support group Shawn was picking me up today. Lucas and I stood awkwardly outside until I started to speak, "Why didn't you tell me?" I asked him

"I - I just" He stopped and started to cry. I hugged him and he cried unto my shoulder.

"Shh. Lucas. She'll get better. You'll see" I reassure him and I wiped tears from his eyes. He looked into my eyes with his green eyes. "It'll be fine" I say wiping another tear from his cheek before I took my hands off of his face completely. Shawn pulled up a minute later and I waved goodbye getting into the car.

"Your mom is coming home a little early tonight" He says looking into his rear view mirror and backing up

"Why, what's wrong?" I asked him really worried 

"She says she isn't feeling good. So - she's coming home" He says 

"You picking her up?"

"She told me she was cleaning up and she'd be home soon" He answered and I kept quiet the entire ride home.

Once we were home we checked and mom wasn't home yet. She walked in the door stumbling and I quickly got up nearly tripping over my tubes that connected to my oxygen tank. Shawn got up too standing back

"Hey guy -" She got out before she fainted and I caught her by her arms Shawn picked her up bridal style and kissed her forehead. I liked this guy more than my biological father who left me and her.

"I'll make her some chicken soup" Shawn says resting her on the bed and I covered her body with a blanket. My mother's eyes fluttered open and she looked at me trying to get up but I stopped her

"You have to lie down" I say to her feeling her forehead "Shawn is downstairs making you some soup. You have a fever too" I say and she lay back down unto the bed 

While she was eating her soup she insisted that I stay with her. I stare down at my phone chuckling every few minutes and my mom looked at me funny.

"What are you doing?" She asked me blowing the soup she had on her spoon

"Oh. I have to tell you something" I say with a smile locking me phone and turning to her

"What is it?" She asked placing the bowl on the small dresser

"At support group - I met a guy." I start and she already looks at me surprised "I like him" I spat out and she smiled at me

"Awe. Was it that guy you said wasn't your friend?" She asked me raising a brow

"Yes -" I smiled. "- but, his sister has gotten worse. She has cancer. What should I do?" I asked her

"Well Maya, you have to let life happen and realize there's some things you can't change even if you wanted to" She replied placing the bowl back into her lap. I nod and kissed her forehead

"You should get some sleep" I say as she finished her soup and I stood up from the bed.

"You're just gonna go in your room and gush about this guy huh?" She says with a smirk

"Yes. Oh, and I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow.. remember?" I say

"Yeah. Shawn will take you" She say covering herself up to her neck with the blanket.

The next morning Shawn and I were listening to the radio as we headed over to the doctors. I noticed a blue velvet box in the car

"Shawn?" I stopped singing as I kept looking at the box

"Yup?" He answered not taking his eyes off the road

"What's this?" I asked picking the box up. He pulled into the parking lot and looked at me "Is that a ring?" I asked him

"Yeah" He said opening the box and showing me the beautiful diamond ring. "I was planning on marrying your mom pretty soon. Is that okay?" He asked me

"That is more than okay. I'm excited" I replied with a smile as we got out of the car.