Chronic Love | Lucaya

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We walked in and the doctor called us in right away. We walked in and sat down in our rightful places

"Hello Miss Maya. How are you?" My doctor asked

"I'm good." I replied fixing the cannula in my nostrils

"We'll get you scanned and give you an update on how you are" She informs me and I nod 

After the scan we were in the room by ourselves

"So when are you gonna propose?" I asked him

"Don't you think it's too early?" He asked me

"I mean kinda but, I wanna -" I stop "I want to know what it's like to have an actual father" I added

"Well -" He was cut off by the doctor returning to the room

"Your lungs have gotten worse. As you would've known. The progression of it worsening is the worst I've ever seen in my years." He said

"So that just means I'm gonna die really soon" I said rolling my eyes slightly annoyed at the fact that the doctors can't be honest and just say when you're gonna die

"I'm saying that you can either get on the waiting list for a lung transplant or you can die in the space of two years or less" The doctor explains eyeing Shawn

"Wait.. how much would be for a lung transplant and you said waiting list?" Shawn spoke sitting up in the chair he recently was slouching in

"The lung transplant would be roughly around $800,000. The waiting list is not as long as others. If you have the money you can get it done" He replies

"Well, thank you for telling me," Shawn says happily and then I started to think that maybe I will live.

We left and got into the car and Shawn sighed.

"What's wrong?" I asked him buckling my seatbelt turning all my attention unto him

"Well, I just wanna pay for the surgery so you can live kiddo" He explains sighing again and reversing

"If you can't pay for it, it's okay. I understand and everyone has to die one day so -" I say staring at the windows as raindrops began to pelt the window

"Don't think like that" He reassures me

I sigh and decided to text Lucas and tell him about the update.

Maya : Can we talk?

Lucas : I guess. Yeah

Maya : My lungs are getting worse. The doctor said it's the worst he's ever seen in years. My life span and decreased to about two years

Lucas : Oh. Sorry to hear that.

Maya : Kaelynn?

Lucas : She's doing better.

Maya : What up with the short answers?

Lucas : What are you talking about?

Maya : You're answering me like you don't care

Lucas : I do.

Maya : Y'know what, I'll talk to you whenever.

I put my phone into my lap and turned my head to make sure Shawn didn't see my eyes that were really watery. We got home and as soon as I closed the door behind me there was a knock on it. I opened it and Lucas was there.

"Listen, I'm sorry" He says waiting on my response

"I am too. When I die, don't worry about me - I'll be fine" I say with tears running down my cheeks. He pulled me into a hug and I hugged him back "I don't wanna die right now" I cried as he held my face in both his hands

"I didn't mean to answer you that way and I already know you so well.. that I know you were gonna be upset still" He explains and he leaned in and I lean in too. Before our lips could touch Shawn calls for me

I sigh and pull away from his grip entirely "I have to go" I tell him and he nods and hugs me once more before leaving. I got inside and my mom was on the couch sitting beside Shawn with a blanket on them.

"Hey mom. How are you feeling?" I asked her sitting in another chair not far from the one they sat in

"I feel better now that you guys are home" She says smiling "Shawn told me. We're gonna do everything we can for you to live. We're gonna try really hard" She says

"Maybe asking for help could work?" I suggested and they looked at each other and back at me "I'll be upstairs" I say heading upstairs