Mute ~Josh Dun x reader~

~Trees~

Y/n POV

I saw Josh cry today..I never seen him cry. I'm always the one crying, a least I know I'm not the only one crying. He told me about his breakup..Why would someone do such a thing to him, he deserves better, he deserves someone who will make him happy forever,who will make sure he doesn't stop smiling and laughing, one who will forever hold on and say "I love you" and won't leave till they both see the light. That someone josh needs that someone I need.. But I already know who will take a useless girl like me.

Josh POV

I broke up with her, I'm not saying her name, She was so I don't know how to exsplane she deserves better, I'm slowly falling for Y/n, I can't stop smiling at her H/c and her e/c those eyes just bring me to attention, I want to tell her I like her, But I don't like her, I love her, But doubt she likes me. She likes Tyler, I can tell

y/n POV

What is Josh thinking, He's been silent for an hour..I would talk..But I'd rather not..I can't. I tapped his shoulder, He didn't move, He didn't speak, He didn't do anything..He is more silent then me, I bring out my Sketch book..I drew trees and all I wrote "Why won't you speak?" I tapped Josh's shoulder again he looked at me and i pointed to the notebook, "Why won't i speak..Just cause..Things are in my mind" I can feel Josh's breath...I feel My death..I don't want to leave..He's not the only one that has things in his mind. I want to tell him that..but I can't tell him...I haven't learned much about Josh..I want to know more about him, I like seeing him everyday, It brings light to my world, It clears the trees, It makes the world less dark, It makes my life less dark, I want to live with josh..But I can clearly see he dosn't Like me..He is just a friend.Nothing else, He is just a guy who Is nice to me..But i really hope he stays, I really

*Later weeks*

Its been one day since Josh hasn't came...

It's been two days since Josh hasn't came

It's been 2 weeks since Josh hasn't came...I guess I'm right everyone leaves, Tyler hasn't visited, Or Josh, I knew it I'm useless, IM weird, I'm DUMB, Why did I think I will Make a friend Like Josh...He deserves better friends, then me, I'm not even sure if he is my friend, but if he is, then why hasn't he come, I need him, I'm panicking, I can't go a day without knowing that is he okay, is Josh safe, Is josh Just not wanting to be my friend, is josh just dead..Was josh never real, or is this just all in my mind, Cause I'm so lonely that I come up with a character in my fucking head to help me to talk to,.. Josh come back..Please, Why hasn't he came, I just need to know that's all...I don't want him leaving like everyone else dose, I thought josh was different..I thought josh was really different... But I'm guessing not. cause he hasn't came, He hasn't messaged me, He didn't do anything...He is like the rest..Be with me for a month then leave. Just like the rest..I'm not supersized if he is out hanging out with other friends..of course eh will have other friends...a least he is better at it then me. cause clearly I don't deserve anyone...i just miss his mocha brown eyes..His highlighted yellow hair..His interesting tattoos, His laugh, his smile, I just miss everything, If josh come's back I hope he knows that It isn't his fault that he left...it's mine that I'm just boring, why do people even find me interesting, Why did josh come and talk to me in first place, He should of just ignored me then went on with his life like the others do, but  i guess he is different...I just want him back that's all i ask for, Fro someone to love me, for someone to care, for someone to let me know that everything is going to be okay, everything is going to be fine,that nobody can hurt me, but at this point everything can hurt me, i hurt myself, so what's the point, what's the point of writing this, what's the point of doing all of this, whats the point of even trying to be friends with Josh, If josh is really different he would come, but I guess I'm just an attention whore and want him all to my self..I wouldn't be surprised if people called me an attention whore...already been called that at home, so what's the point of having someone else call me that when i already call mys elf that..I put down my notebook and looked around the park..I found josh..He is talking to someone else.. he is holding her hand..And his lips went on her..I'm not surprised josh would find somebody..I'm not surprised josh would find someone that makes him happy..I just wish i was that person who makes josh happy, I want to tell him, but why would he date a girl who doesn't talk...I see Tyler holding a girls hand, She has light pink hair, Like she was blond then she dyed it, she has blue eyes, she is wearing something normal like skinny jeans and a black tank top..Everyone has someone but Yet I'm here. I have no one, Tyler and that girl look really in love but that girl josh kissed doesn't look like she likes him at all, Like if she's begging forced to do something, Like how parents forced little siblings to go with you when you wanted to go somewhere by yourself, I guess I'm just jealous, but am i really..Or am i just telling the truth...I hope Josh is really happy with her, In till then i will find somebody, somebody who will love me...Heck i doubt it. Josh sees me I turn around and run home. A hot salty tear goes down my cheek. I inter the house then SLAM, I felt a sharp pain in my left cheek  "Where the fuck have you been YOUNG LADY" I looked up and it was like my parents "TALK, OH WAIT YOU CAN'T" I tried to speak but nothing "GO TO YOUR FUCKING ROOM" I go up to my room and land in my bed crying, it was 8:42 pm...i decided to sleep, I have nothing else to do but cry, Cry over a fucking guy who I had a crush on, Cry over a guy...Who I thought was different but really wasn't.

(SORRY GUYS IF YOU GOT NOTIFICATION FROM RANDOM THINGS LIKE I KEPT SWITCHING CHAPTERS CAUSE I WAS TRYING TO FIX MY CHAPTERS)