I'm Inlove With The Gangster Queen

Chapter 1

This is the updated version of Chapter 1. However, I'll update it once more if I encounter any problem. Thank you for your understanding!

Updated: August 20, 2021

Samantha's POV

There is some things in this world that should be forgotten but you still don't know how. Do you know why? Because you are still holding on. You can't accept it.You're not capable of accepting the truth. Because of the pain and sufferings, that changes you.

"Hey Mom, pleaseeee!" Pagmamakaawa ko kay Mommy. I did not expect that I will do this. Begging to someone who do not have plans on staying in the first place? It sucks. It hurt.

"Hey Princess, don't cry. Alright? Just let us——go." She smiled at me while her tears are falling down to her face. And its breaking me. Slowly breaking me. Because why——why am I seeing this?

I don't know why this happens. Dahil sa pagkakaalala ko, maayos naman kami. We don't have any problem. We're okay. We're happy——are we? This question makes my heart hurt so much.

Because the truth is, we're not. In every person's life, there are two things they will experience. Happiness and sadness. But why is sadness and pain, always wins? Is it because we need pain in order to be stronger?

I was 8 years old when that thing happened. A memory that will make my life change. An experience that will make my life miserable. At sila ang sinisisi ko doon. Because they left me, alone.

"B-but Mom, why is Kuya coming? While me, l-left behind?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko. "You're unfair! I hate you!"

Then I realized something, in terms of favoritism, I never win.

"Ano ba, Samantha?! Can't you understand the situation?! You are already 8 years old!"

"I'm just 8 years old and I need my family. Can't you understand it, Mom? Huh?" Umiiyak na sabi ko na lalo niyang ikinaiyak. Bahagya pa siyang umiwas ng tingin sa akin.

"Just let us go, Samantha. We don't need you." Biglang tumigil ang mundo ko sa sinabi niyang 'yun. I felt numb. Wala akong maramdamang iba kundi sakit. Dahil hindi na ako kailangan ng taong pinakakailangan ko.

"W-why are you saying this? Did I do something wrong?" Humihikbing tanong ko. "I'm sorry, alright? I'm sorry. I will not go anywhere, I'll be a good girl. So please, stay with me." Sinubukan ko siyang abutin pero tuluyan na siyang lumayo sa akin. Kitang-kita ko pa ang pagbagsak ng kamay ko sa akmang pag-abot sa kaniya.

"Stop her, Arturo. I need to go." Seryosong sabi ni Mommy kay Daddy na kararating lang. He's looking at me. Seeing my dad like that, helps me not to lose my hope, not to let go.

He can help me. I know he c-can——r-right?

"Hey Dad, h-help me. Help me to pursue them not to leave us. I-i don't want them to leave. I c-cant." Pagmamakaawa ko kay Daddy. He sighed and looked directly into my eyes. He wants to say something. But I wonder why he can't say it. I don't know. Ang gulo. Nagdadalawang-isip siya.

"Sam, listen to me. Let them go, alright?" Napamaang ako sa sinabi niya. Hindi makapaniwala.

"No! What are you trying to say, Daddy? T-that i should let them leave me without any valid reason? Are you kidding me? Y-you should be helping me! N-not making me lose my o-only——hope!" Mas lalo na akong naiyak. I expected him that he would help me ask them to stay with us not the other way around! He agreed to let them go, without doing anything! He just let them go! He didn't stop them.