7 Years & Waiting

Chapter - 56

Amara....

Calm down Am! May be you are overthinking...May be that ring was not for you! May be it is for...for....Urghh!

I took a deep breath trying really hard to calm myself down. As much as I tried to trick my heart in believing it to be untrue, my mind forced me to face the truth. Vivaan is going to propose to you tonight!

After his shower, we both sat at the kitchen counter for lunch. He was talking animatedly about his new job profile but it was like my mind was zoning out all outside voices. My eyes flickered to him as he spoke but I couldn't bring myself to ask the one question that I should have. Are you gonna propose me tonight? What is that ring doing on your side table?

I had a sudden urge to talk to Sarthak about this but after last night, I don't think he will ever want to talk to me again. It may have been our last meeting and I ran away evading his questions. What am I gonna do?

My mind was still skimming in random thoughts and confusions after lunch and so I decided to get some office work done to divert it.

I went to my room and sat on my bed opening my laptop. I was about to open my company's software when I noticed a small notification at my screen indicating that I had an unread mail in my inbox sent by Sarthak.

I frowned as he could have just messaged me on my phone. Why a mail?

My hand shook a little as I clicked on that link and the mail opened up on my screen. It was like a letter written by him addressed to me and the first thing I noticed was the time of sending this mail which was at 6 this morning. He must have woken up really early to write this mail to me.

I took a deep breath and started reading.

Dear Firebolt...

If you are reading my mail then I would like to think that you have forgiven me to some extent for that inappropriate kiss last night. Although, I know it has more to do with your forgiving nature and less with my apology.

Yesterday when I saw you at the club, I got both nervous and relieved. Nervous to face you after admitting my feelings and relieved about the fact that I could tell you things I wanted before leaving.

I lost my only chance of talking by losing control and kissing you. However, I don't regret any single moment of that kiss. Now that I think of it, it may be the last best memory of us for me.

Anyways...I didn't write this letter to bore you with my lame love confessions. We both know I am not so good at them. (I hope you chuckle at this line)

I just wanted you to know that me loving you doesn't change anything. Even if you are with another guy and you decide never to see my face again, you will still be my best friend Firebolt!

The last few days have been a series of bad decisions for me. Never did I ever think that I would become this self-centred guy especially when it comes to you. I got distracted with jealousy and possessiveness so much that I didn't even realise that I was hurting you in the process.

I knew all along that you love him yet I let my personal inhibitions get in the middle of our friendship.

I know you don't like the fact that I am going away but trust me Am...it's for the best!

You, apart from being my best friend are a bright, independent and compassionate person and as I always believed, you are gonna do something great in your life. I don't wanna distract you from your life goals and keep stuck in this weird 'love triangle' thing. I have high hopes for you Firebolt!