Me,My Mom and Her Bestfriend

MMMBF 6

ME,MY MOM AND HER BESTFRIEND|by Robin

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#MMMBF6

It's the fourth day.Hindi pa rin ako hinahanap ni Nicky.Gustong-gusto ko ng magtampo.Did she finally gave up on me?

I was not texting her but I stalked her online.And my heart clenched at her new tagged photos.

This is why she wasn't calling me.

Nicky Acosta was tagged in Lea Lumbao's photo with Timotheo Sta. Maria and 4 others.Wild night with rakistang batch! 10 minutes ago.

They were in a bar,drinking and she was smoking in her skimpy clothes.And one photo was her kissing him.

I felt my eyes sting.Pabato kong binitiwan ang cellphone ko sa kama.Nawala na ang antok ko.My hands fisted,I want to hurt him!

Tumayo ako,nameywang at kumalma.Pero ramdam ko na gising na gising ang galit ko,gusto ko na namang sumigaw.

Ito ba ang gusto niya ha?Na umalis ako? Na mawala ako para magawa nya ang mga gusto niya kasama ang lalaking yon?!

What the ffuck Mommy?

I sat down,I can't take it.

I pulled my hair.Pinipigilan kong umiyak pero nabigo ako.My eyes,they swelled in tears.

I hate you Mom.You're so selfish!

The next morning,I didn't mean to be rude or what pero talagang wala lang akong ganang kumain.So I passed the dining when Mommy-Lola called me for breakfast.

Lunch time ay hindi rin ako kumain,wala pa rin akong gana.Halos subuan na nga ako ni Bianca na napagalitan ko lang.Hindi ko inasahan na babalikan niya ako sa pagsusungit ko.

"You know what? Accept it.Harsh talaga ang mundo.May mga magulang talaga na hindi nila mahal ang mga anak nila.May mga anak ngang ibinubugaw dyan eh,worst,ibinebenta pa para lang magkapera.So what makes you think that you can be different?Your Mom hates you,accept it! So if I were you,you better learn how to take care yourself!"

I was glad na umalis siya.Nasa canteen kami at alam kong maraming nakarinig non at wala akong pakealam.I'm just too tired to take care of them.

Pumunta na lang ako ng library at lumiban sa training.I can't play ball right now,I can't take seeing my Coach happy with his family while I don't,while Mom and I don't.

Pumatak ang five PM.Hindi ko na inisip si Bianca dahil malamang ay galit naman sa akin.Kaya tumambay pa ako sa library hanggang sa magsasara na.

Ayoko pang umuwi,well hindi ko naman talaga alam kung saan ko gustong umuwi o kung gusto ko pa bang umuwi.Feeling so down to think that a family might need me.

I went to a park nearby.Nang makakita ako ng libreng bench sa ilalim ng umbrella tree,humiga ako,inunan ko ang bag ko na walang lamang Nike and decided to sleep.

But even sleep won't spare me.Nakapikit akong umiiyak.Siguro nga tama si Bianca.Hindi ako mahal ng Mommy ko hindi nga lang dahil harsh ang mundo,kundi dahil makasarili lang siya at wala siyang pakealam sa akin.